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Welll
I started off nicely today. Coffee drink 155 cals for breakfast and then a -460 calorie workout at school. But I went home at 2:00 and being home around food was too much temptation for me, as hungry as I was. I ate banana bread, blueberry bread (sounds weird, but it's amazing), leftover stirfry from yesterday, a couple slices of Velveeta 2% milkfat cheese, and 2 Russell Stover chocolates. Considering I was over 300 calories in the hole to start with, that's really not too much damage, but my lack of self control is still disappointing. I have yet to eat supper but I made sure my mom saw me eating this afternoon, so I should be able to beg off as "not hungry" and get away with not eating much. If I do a -500 or so calorie workout tonight I should be fine, less than 1000 for sure, probably closer to 500 net calories for the day.
Very pleased with yesterday- ended the day at 0 calories exactly!
I haven't weighed myself lately, but I will try to remember to do it soon. I better get some fucking results this time.
Tomorrow should be great! I am stuck at school until 5:30 with most of the afternoon free to work out, practice my speech script, and play chess with the nerdy kids. Happily I will not have any opportunity to binge at school and get home just in time for supper. Then I will just have to exercise control at supper, work out more if I want/need to, and I will be all set.
My journal has got to be extremely boring, but really nothing is going on in my life right now except having tons of projects and homework since break ended. I guess controlling my body is my way to deal with stress and keep a firm feeling of control over some part of my life.
I started off nicely today. Coffee drink 155 cals for breakfast and then a -460 calorie workout at school. But I went home at 2:00 and being home around food was too much temptation for me, as hungry as I was. I ate banana bread, blueberry bread (sounds weird, but it's amazing), leftover stirfry from yesterday, a couple slices of Velveeta 2% milkfat cheese, and 2 Russell Stover chocolates. Considering I was over 300 calories in the hole to start with, that's really not too much damage, but my lack of self control is still disappointing. I have yet to eat supper but I made sure my mom saw me eating this afternoon, so I should be able to beg off as "not hungry" and get away with not eating much. If I do a -500 or so calorie workout tonight I should be fine, less than 1000 for sure, probably closer to 500 net calories for the day.
Very pleased with yesterday- ended the day at 0 calories exactly!
I haven't weighed myself lately, but I will try to remember to do it soon. I better get some fucking results this time.
Tomorrow should be great! I am stuck at school until 5:30 with most of the afternoon free to work out, practice my speech script, and play chess with the nerdy kids. Happily I will not have any opportunity to binge at school and get home just in time for supper. Then I will just have to exercise control at supper, work out more if I want/need to, and I will be all set.
My journal has got to be extremely boring, but really nothing is going on in my life right now except having tons of projects and homework since break ended. I guess controlling my body is my way to deal with stress and keep a firm feeling of control over some part of my life.