Nnrgh.
Hi. Um, I didn't really want to post about this because I don't want to sound like I'm begging for pity or anything, but I figured that in the interest of avoiding confusion in future posts or whatever and since this is my journal and I can complain if I want to, my girlfriend Mercy dumped me on Tuesday.
She said I hadn't given her time to think over the whole situation with me dating Noah at the same time, and she feels like she was rushed into making a decision. Because...she apparently couldn't have asked me for time to consider it. Right. I don't know. I think she's being kind of immature about the whole situation (not that she isn't justified in feeling weird about it, just the way she's acting in general) and really I'm just kind of angry more than I am sad. Although it is very upsetting. I haven't even had time to talk to Noah about it-- well, he knows she dumped me, but we haven't had any time to talk-- so I've just been confused and moping around for the past few days.
I don't really know what I'm going to do now. All I know is that I'm being made to feel like this is all my fault, and that's not a comfortable situation. Plus, the stupid prats on my bus are somehow convinced that we broke up (how they even know is beyond me, except that we don't sit together anymore) because we're straight now, which is dumb and irrelevant and I want them all to shut up. I just really want everyone to leave me alone.
Well, except for Noah. I need a goddamn hug. *sigh* I think I'll just...go write some more, or something. Sorry to all of you who haven't gotten drabbles yet. I've been swamped with homework and issues. They're coming soon.
She said I hadn't given her time to think over the whole situation with me dating Noah at the same time, and she feels like she was rushed into making a decision. Because...she apparently couldn't have asked me for time to consider it. Right. I don't know. I think she's being kind of immature about the whole situation (not that she isn't justified in feeling weird about it, just the way she's acting in general) and really I'm just kind of angry more than I am sad. Although it is very upsetting. I haven't even had time to talk to Noah about it-- well, he knows she dumped me, but we haven't had any time to talk-- so I've just been confused and moping around for the past few days.
I don't really know what I'm going to do now. All I know is that I'm being made to feel like this is all my fault, and that's not a comfortable situation. Plus, the stupid prats on my bus are somehow convinced that we broke up (how they even know is beyond me, except that we don't sit together anymore) because we're straight now, which is dumb and irrelevant and I want them all to shut up. I just really want everyone to leave me alone.
Well, except for Noah. I need a goddamn hug. *sigh* I think I'll just...go write some more, or something. Sorry to all of you who haven't gotten drabbles yet. I've been swamped with homework and issues. They're coming soon.