as fake blood rush down her face

[runherdown]

this is was terrible
i just woke up from a nightmare/horrible dream
i hope it wasnt the cradle of filth video i
kept watching before i went to sleep.
i was really diggin it.
Cradle of Filth - Babylon AD
when i woke up i was talking to my mom
and i just started to yell and cuss at her
when i was half sleep half awake.
whatever it was, it hurt like really bad
i may be cause i stop taking my anti depressants
cause they made me lose my appetite
hopefully i will get something different in
a couple days.
till then..i hope stuff like what just happen stop.
i got a 120$ phone bill last month
so people quit calling me during the day
call pass 9pm so i dont have to pay a shit load of money
well i think i am going to see my baby autumn tonight
im xxxcited bout that, cause things are going really good
and just seem to be getting better.
im outta here to see matt, tyler, and nick.
i need to talk to matt
cause stuff between us has been really shitty recently
he use to be my best friend
im sure that things will work out
much love
<3John