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WOW!!! I have not updated in an extra super long time, like 3 months. How crazy is that? A lot has happened since than. I am running and competeing again. It's amazing I love the girls on the team and I love just being out there running and giving God the glory in an awesome talent He gave me. Speaking of God, I am relying on Him more and more everyday. He is my only true best friend I can count on 100% of the time, and I am okay with that. I have many friends I can't count on. But everyone is human and their love fails oh I wrote an awesome poem..well I've been writing a lot. People are seriously pushing me to get published and get out there because I have an awesome gift for writing. I'm actually starting to believe it. I'm actually starting to believe in myself. For about the last two months I have been in recovery from my eating disorder :) rock on. There are still days where I struggle but in the past about 80 days i've slipped up maybe 6 times. That is just amazing. I love being healthy so much better. It's kind of sad the year is almost over and I'll move back home. But than again for the summer I will be down in Florida for 10 weeks. Panama City Beach. It's a christian thing where you learn more about God, grow closer to Him. They have you get a full time job to help cover expenses and the cost of what you don't raise before you go. I already am not the same person I was when I graduated high school. Just thinking of how much I will change this summer that far away from home and everyone and everything I ever knew is exciting. School is going really good too. Last semester I had like a 3.25 gpa this semester is probably about the same. I honestly must say despire how miserable I was and everything that's happened in my past I am very thankful for it. I am thankful for people hating me and making fun of me and just not being good friends, because it is making me into an awesome young adult. By being hated I am now learning what real love and real friendship feels like. By being put down and discouraged in the past and told I would never make it. I am learning what it is like to make and to be successful. By being away from home and being forced to step into territory I have never dared enter I am learning who I am. But most importantly by giving up my past and forgiving everything that happened I am setting myself free. (oh yea I got this awesome book, its called beauty by the book seeing yourself as God sees you. its amazing i recommend it to anyone who puts their faith and life in the hands of Jesus) I am learning so much here, but its not in the classrooms (well okay some there too) but outside in my relationships and what I see. One thing about me though hasn't changed and I am very happy to say that. I still have never done a drug or drank, and I don't ever plan on doing drugs and as for drinking maybe in a year when i'm 21 i will but i don't plan on getting smashed or whatever it's called. being here is amazing for that too. I dont feel so alone with my DARE attitude for lack of a better term. there are a lot of ppl out here who feel as i do. and speaking of being 21 in a year. my 20th birthday was the best birthday ever. i spent it with missy some of her friends and some of my friends. we met up for the brewer game than went midnight bowling. I've never had a better birthday. thanks guys. your all amazing.!!! :)
well i dont come home much anymore. i regret not comming home a lot because my family who i love very much means a lot to me. and i still have not visited sassy (where we buried her, she was put to sleep about 3 weeks ago) i already miss my best puppy. but other than the family i care and love so much, and a job i rarely work there isnt really anything in Waukesha left for me. It helped build me up to who i am and who I am becoming, but as for friends i have to be honest i really wouldn't count the people i used to call my friends as a friend anymore. Sometimes i question if they ever were real true honest friends. I'm not saying i hate them or i dont care about them i always will and do care and i enjoy the memories of the good times. but as for now, i've moved on for the most part. and there's not an ounce of regret in my heart. well i guess that is enough updating and blah blah blahing. i have to go study before sociology at 2. take care, love yourselfs so others may love you in return and God Bless.
~Becky~
"Do not give up on hope, for hope has not given up on you."
oh yea i'll post my awesome poem i wrote. cuz i am super proud of it. love yas
well i dont come home much anymore. i regret not comming home a lot because my family who i love very much means a lot to me. and i still have not visited sassy (where we buried her, she was put to sleep about 3 weeks ago) i already miss my best puppy. but other than the family i care and love so much, and a job i rarely work there isnt really anything in Waukesha left for me. It helped build me up to who i am and who I am becoming, but as for friends i have to be honest i really wouldn't count the people i used to call my friends as a friend anymore. Sometimes i question if they ever were real true honest friends. I'm not saying i hate them or i dont care about them i always will and do care and i enjoy the memories of the good times. but as for now, i've moved on for the most part. and there's not an ounce of regret in my heart. well i guess that is enough updating and blah blah blahing. i have to go study before sociology at 2. take care, love yourselfs so others may love you in return and God Bless.
~Becky~
"Do not give up on hope, for hope has not given up on you."
oh yea i'll post my awesome poem i wrote. cuz i am super proud of it. love yas