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Argh, I hate this... I fucking cant stop, and sont want to, but whats the point hearts grow cold to me fast... lost feelings, how does it happen so fast, I seem to love her alot, alot more than I can understand, and yeah I guess wile I shouldnt ask others to make me happy, she did make me happy with out even having to try... I'll move away far away from here, far from you, and just to where I know noone... music is the only lover I will have and a drawing all the touching I will get, I will always be waiting for her... even though i dont think she will ever come, I will be there... There are worse ways for a guy to spend his time, dont let me say I love you... it only makes you run away and forget every thing, not caring...
going through a box looking for my knife, I found a folded table place mat from ihop, heh from when me and morgan were sitting together drawing waiting for our food, I'm such a sappy fucker... I keep little sentemantle shit like that...
Words flow out striking out at the blankness of the paper all at once this is the world to you. moments before it was just a blank peice of paper, no different than the next. now its all the things you cant say, the unspoken pain, spilled emotions poured from a broken heart. the paper drips with feeling splashing truths recklessly Cant fight it anymore, They've traveled far with you, things held to near, a bitter poison kept willingly close to your heart, The red ink spells out more than just words Letters that drip from page to page,
From open wounds untold and unable to heal,
Only hoping one day to leap clear of the lines, that have confined them here, to truely be free of past heart acke, but these tears you are crying now arnt for whats past, a cold last kiss from warm lips, with love in my heart now, I am not who I was...
when youve said all you needed to, we part our ways
I know your not needing me, but right now darling I'm in need of you
youve spoken those words to me, and i wish it could be the last time
I dont know what holds my body up, what stops me from staying down
I thought it was you
but fuck darling your gone
came as quick as you left, know that one cant know
you read a few pages heard a few songs and got a few complements
and the silly boy...
noone ever wants the hand behind the pen
the mind behind the looks
my darling I'm left here
writing the sad song again, I leave tonight, I leave to walk
the rain drops will fill me up and hide the tears
walking in the rain
like we were going to
darling i dont blame you
darling i got the chance to say what you needed to hear
I gave the flowers
was that silly boy
you write me a letter
a letter that came in time of pain
a pain you caused
I read over the folded paper, only seeing words
empty words
no trace of the feelings you had
was i such a fool
or was it all a dream, that i woke from to find myself alone
memories hurt
the sound of i love yous that echo throuhg my head
you left me and left me with empty words saying we are to young
you were to young to give love a chance
was i such a fool
a silly boy that folded under my life when left to hold it alone
looking out from under my crushed life
i search for something more
you were scared of the way you felt
so scared of being in love
love fades leaves your heart and leaves me broken
I knew it, i knew before you did, I was scared of being hurt too
but fuck if i let it hold me back, i would hurt for a chance of love
knowing you like i know myself and knowing you know me the same way
we part
thought you could teach me to sleep with out a care
i knew it, fuck
going through a box looking for my knife, I found a folded table place mat from ihop, heh from when me and morgan were sitting together drawing waiting for our food, I'm such a sappy fucker... I keep little sentemantle shit like that...
Words flow out striking out at the blankness of the paper all at once this is the world to you. moments before it was just a blank peice of paper, no different than the next. now its all the things you cant say, the unspoken pain, spilled emotions poured from a broken heart. the paper drips with feeling splashing truths recklessly Cant fight it anymore, They've traveled far with you, things held to near, a bitter poison kept willingly close to your heart, The red ink spells out more than just words Letters that drip from page to page,
From open wounds untold and unable to heal,
Only hoping one day to leap clear of the lines, that have confined them here, to truely be free of past heart acke, but these tears you are crying now arnt for whats past, a cold last kiss from warm lips, with love in my heart now, I am not who I was...
when youve said all you needed to, we part our ways
I know your not needing me, but right now darling I'm in need of you
youve spoken those words to me, and i wish it could be the last time
I dont know what holds my body up, what stops me from staying down
I thought it was you
but fuck darling your gone
came as quick as you left, know that one cant know
you read a few pages heard a few songs and got a few complements
and the silly boy...
noone ever wants the hand behind the pen
the mind behind the looks
my darling I'm left here
writing the sad song again, I leave tonight, I leave to walk
the rain drops will fill me up and hide the tears
walking in the rain
like we were going to
darling i dont blame you
darling i got the chance to say what you needed to hear
I gave the flowers
was that silly boy
you write me a letter
a letter that came in time of pain
a pain you caused
I read over the folded paper, only seeing words
empty words
no trace of the feelings you had
was i such a fool
or was it all a dream, that i woke from to find myself alone
memories hurt
the sound of i love yous that echo throuhg my head
you left me and left me with empty words saying we are to young
you were to young to give love a chance
was i such a fool
a silly boy that folded under my life when left to hold it alone
looking out from under my crushed life
i search for something more
you were scared of the way you felt
so scared of being in love
love fades leaves your heart and leaves me broken
I knew it, i knew before you did, I was scared of being hurt too
but fuck if i let it hold me back, i would hurt for a chance of love
knowing you like i know myself and knowing you know me the same way
we part
thought you could teach me to sleep with out a care
i knew it, fuck