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well okay, alot of things that are happening / have happened / will happen are in my future / present / past.
oh shut up jake, just get on with it.
okay, well i met justin the other night -- that was intresting, he is sweet. the one problem with that is that he seems to have fallen for me really hard -- and according to Phillip in that infamous comment he left a few days ago -- and also he's told me many times before (among many other people) "you're a flirt, you love being single, yet you want to be in a relationship? patience boy, patience"
the one major-uber-outstanding reason why i'm iffy on justin, is that he really does seem sweet and all -- but if i'm such a flirt - i don't want to not be intrested, i do. but since i'm such a flirt - i don't want to just leave him out in the cold, because that would hurt him so bad - and amber, abby, and everyone else i know on the concordia and msum campuses would all hunt me down and tear me limb from limb -- if i don't tear myself apart because i hate seeing people hurt - we know this...well how do you think it would go over in my head if i realized I WAS THE ONE HURTING THE PERSON!? yeah, it's gone over like that before....not a pretty sight.
i guess i really am just addicted to the adrenaline of the dancefloor - of flirting, just the psycological rush that happens....is that a bad thing?
i don't want to hurt justin, but yet i don't want to just give myself over to him because i don't think i can....
maybe relationships aren't cut out for me....
grr, i'm moody now - and i don't have anyone to talk too.
i should go back to putting up more posters for the drag show anyway, yeah, thats what i'll do. then eventually get started on that homework i need to do....yeah.
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oh shut up jake, just get on with it.
okay, well i met justin the other night -- that was intresting, he is sweet. the one problem with that is that he seems to have fallen for me really hard -- and according to Phillip in that infamous comment he left a few days ago -- and also he's told me many times before (among many other people) "you're a flirt, you love being single, yet you want to be in a relationship? patience boy, patience"
the one major-uber-outstanding reason why i'm iffy on justin, is that he really does seem sweet and all -- but if i'm such a flirt - i don't want to not be intrested, i do. but since i'm such a flirt - i don't want to just leave him out in the cold, because that would hurt him so bad - and amber, abby, and everyone else i know on the concordia and msum campuses would all hunt me down and tear me limb from limb -- if i don't tear myself apart because i hate seeing people hurt - we know this...well how do you think it would go over in my head if i realized I WAS THE ONE HURTING THE PERSON!? yeah, it's gone over like that before....not a pretty sight.
i guess i really am just addicted to the adrenaline of the dancefloor - of flirting, just the psycological rush that happens....is that a bad thing?
i don't want to hurt justin, but yet i don't want to just give myself over to him because i don't think i can....
maybe relationships aren't cut out for me....
grr, i'm moody now - and i don't have anyone to talk too.
i should go back to putting up more posters for the drag show anyway, yeah, thats what i'll do. then eventually get started on that homework i need to do....yeah.
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