sometimes i wish
that my life as a whole was a whirlwind of excitement. i mean SURE i like my mellow life, and my confort zones and that fact that i feel so very SECURE. but there seems to be a large lack of spontenaiety and surprise. NOT that everything is the same old same old all the time. but i dunno i'm sick of my routines. i'm sick of this place. and i think thats 95 % of it. I sit here everyday looking at the same webpages, doing the same old crap. avoiding the same old phone calls. i just want something totally off the wall to happen. i want to be swept off my feet by how drastically my life is improving.
things with ron are great. god, without that sometimes i think i'd croak. but i feel as though my environment has reached a point of STIFLING. my job has WAY surpassed the point of stifling. i'm hungry. i never went to lunch, or the bookstore. i just let the lazyness overtake me. blah blah blah blah blah.
things with ron are great. god, without that sometimes i think i'd croak. but i feel as though my environment has reached a point of STIFLING. my job has WAY surpassed the point of stifling. i'm hungry. i never went to lunch, or the bookstore. i just let the lazyness overtake me. blah blah blah blah blah.