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i feel so distant from a lot of people lately.
that's how it goes i guess.
i never update anymore.
in fact, i never really go on the computer at all.
my rents added a deadbolt to the computer room door.
so i cant break in with a credit card anymore.
they are just wasting their time.
even when im ungrounded i dont think my parents will let me do anything anymore.
oh, well. i dont blame them. i broke their trust. not that they ever trusted me that much to begin with.
they broke my trust too.
i feel like if i even go online, they are going to read everything i say.
when i talk on the phone, i constantly pace around the house and check to make sure that they are not listening in another phone.
i know im just really paranoid and overreacting. but i cant help it.
keeping me from experiencing things is not always a good thing.
of course, im going to make mistakes. but at least i'd learn. i dont know.
on a lighter note, i am really happy for once. and its nice.
that's how it goes i guess.
i never update anymore.
in fact, i never really go on the computer at all.
my rents added a deadbolt to the computer room door.
so i cant break in with a credit card anymore.
they are just wasting their time.
even when im ungrounded i dont think my parents will let me do anything anymore.
oh, well. i dont blame them. i broke their trust. not that they ever trusted me that much to begin with.
they broke my trust too.
i feel like if i even go online, they are going to read everything i say.
when i talk on the phone, i constantly pace around the house and check to make sure that they are not listening in another phone.
i know im just really paranoid and overreacting. but i cant help it.
keeping me from experiencing things is not always a good thing.
of course, im going to make mistakes. but at least i'd learn. i dont know.
on a lighter note, i am really happy for once. and its nice.