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[runawaytogether]

hhmmmmmm. i don't know how i feel these days. i love robby but sometimes he hurts me so much. maybe i'm just hyper sensitive b/c he's the one i love. he's got me wanting to break up with him one day then wanting to work it out the next. i love him, but i've gotten to the point where i've realized love doesn't conquer all. (i wish it did but it doesn't) i've kinda realized that whenever i fall inlove i can't depend on that person, well at least robby for that matter. i guess once spring break is over i'll know. especially b/c robby is in panama city that is crawling with dirty half naked hoes willing to through themselves at anything and the people down there will only protect robby if he does cheat on me. those people wouldn't tell me the truth, at least i don't have faith that they would. sad isn't it.

then i've got john h. hitting on me and wanting to "take [me] out sometime." sure he can take me out sometime, i like food, i like the company, but i wouldn't give anything to him. i'm vulernable, not stupid.

should i expect the worst? or have faith in robby that the will not cheat on me a second (technically 4th) time?

i have a bad feeling about this. i'm basically putting it down on if he calls me. he said he would try to call me back tonight but he would definately call me tomorrow. still i've got that sinking feeling in my stomach, the same one that i had on xmas eve night, one of the nights he did cheat on me.