a long rambling post
This is the last few minutes of my break. God I'm going to miss it. I'm not even half way through the school year and I'm already trying to abandon ship. Maybe though, just maybe, I'll go to school tommorow and do everything right for once. I hate when I say things like that but don't follow through. It makes me feel like I'm a day late and a dollar short... only I'll always be a day late and about 20 dollars short. I hate being poor. Luckily, I'm getting my workers permit hopefull sometime this week so hopefully I'll be getting a job soon. The problem about that one is that I might not have the right schedule to support a job, you know, being a part time high schooler full time runner and all. Speaking of running, I kind of feel like I want to quit. Not because it's too hard or anything. I just feel like Amanda hates me. Ever since that state meet and the weeks leading up to it. Ever since I got back from my injury I feel like she's been giving me the cold shoulder. I guess it's not her resposibility to be especially nice to me but she seems hella nice to everyone else. For those of you not in the know Amanda is the coach. Maybe she's just being moody because she's preggers. I don't know. Also, I hate to be a pooper but the holidays piss me off. Christmas is the most annoying holiday ever. If it weren't for the break ( and the occasional amazing handout I get ) I wouldn't celebrate at all. It's 12:38 and I really should be getting to bed, it's almost 12:40, but... I kind of feel like I'd rather bash my head into the sidewalk than wake up tommorow morning, get dressed, get all the candy and condoms and shit out of my bag, pack it with books, put songs on my I pod, cram all my shit into my pockets, get into my mom's car, get dropped off at the mendrek laske's house, wait for them to get ready, get in their car, arrive late to school, go to homeroom, go to P.E., ET fucking C. Sorry for that run-on but I thought it appropriatly expressed my feelings on the whole thing. I'm really enjoying my music carreer. I feel like it's something I don't suck at. Thanks alot music.