A Crippled Comedy
I'm in a writing mood, but my muse packed her bags and left around a year ago.
I'm home to take a shower, and here I am sitting on the computer doing anything other what I should be. How typical of me.
*sighs*
Amazing how different my life is now. I really don't care, oddly enough. I don't care about much anymore. People annoy me and frustrate me and I don't have the energy to deal with much.
I do have lyme, as far as we know. I have three days left of the Doxy. The doxy alone has fucked up my life quite a bit. I can't eat for six hours a day, two hours before taking it and an hour after. I'm supposed to stay away from diary, which is wicked hard. If I don't drink at least 8oz of water when I take it, it could burn a hole in my esophogus (sp?), and for that same reason I have to wait half an hour before lying down after taking it. I'm not allowed in the sun (very hard). It fucks up my digestive system to the point I had to start taking probiotics just to not be horribly sick all the time. It messes with the effectiveness of my other meds.....
I just hope to god when I go see my doctor on monday that she says I'm done with it. I really don't want another four weeks of this.
I'll never be back to where I was. It's gonna be a good while till I get my strength back. I've adjusted though, changed the order and how I do things at work. I sleep more then ever, yet rarely feel rested.
It just sucks.
Ronnie had her baby on the 21st. She's georgous. 6lbs 7oz, 20 inches, Elizabeth Mai. I'm already called Aunt Jess or Auntie Jess by the grandmother, mother and father. XD
Jake is good. He's really made up for my weakness' and become an awesome jumper. We got a 3rd, 5th and 4th at our show this month, with the height maxed out in our division (I hadn't jumped that high in two monthes as Jess has been keeping it easy for me at home).
That's us in November 06'. Those jumps were only 2'3" compared to the 3' we jumped a couple weeks ago. I'm wearing two shirts, a sweater, a polarfleece jacket and that blue jacket in that picture. It was 30degrees and windy, I didn't ride till 8pm that night.
The internet has less apeal for me now then it used to. Especially after I started using the computer more only to find that I was de-admined without even so much as a "do you mind?". Rather hurt, ya know? Whenever I tried to make that place live I got little support and lotz of bitching. I'm sorry, it really angers me that no one thought to email me and ask if I wanted to loose my place, or if I was willing to put more time in to it. I was quietly and neatly replaced without a word and it reopened old and bitter wounds.
MEH.
Neil's at a friend's house, and I've got to get in the shower still.
I hate this state. I really do and I want to leave very badly. Neil thinks if we're careful we'll be able to leave next year. That means a lot, but I'm not getting my hopes up after past expierence.
Well I'm off to shower and maybe eat something.... I'll just leave ya'll with a pic of us from christmas day 06'. He's actually beardless, which only lasted a week. If you look carefully you can see my brother in the background with Harry & David Truffle Wrappers in his ears.
Toodles all....
I'm home to take a shower, and here I am sitting on the computer doing anything other what I should be. How typical of me.
*sighs*
Amazing how different my life is now. I really don't care, oddly enough. I don't care about much anymore. People annoy me and frustrate me and I don't have the energy to deal with much.
I do have lyme, as far as we know. I have three days left of the Doxy. The doxy alone has fucked up my life quite a bit. I can't eat for six hours a day, two hours before taking it and an hour after. I'm supposed to stay away from diary, which is wicked hard. If I don't drink at least 8oz of water when I take it, it could burn a hole in my esophogus (sp?), and for that same reason I have to wait half an hour before lying down after taking it. I'm not allowed in the sun (very hard). It fucks up my digestive system to the point I had to start taking probiotics just to not be horribly sick all the time. It messes with the effectiveness of my other meds.....
I just hope to god when I go see my doctor on monday that she says I'm done with it. I really don't want another four weeks of this.
I'll never be back to where I was. It's gonna be a good while till I get my strength back. I've adjusted though, changed the order and how I do things at work. I sleep more then ever, yet rarely feel rested.
It just sucks.
Ronnie had her baby on the 21st. She's georgous. 6lbs 7oz, 20 inches, Elizabeth Mai. I'm already called Aunt Jess or Auntie Jess by the grandmother, mother and father. XD
Jake is good. He's really made up for my weakness' and become an awesome jumper. We got a 3rd, 5th and 4th at our show this month, with the height maxed out in our division (I hadn't jumped that high in two monthes as Jess has been keeping it easy for me at home).
That's us in November 06'. Those jumps were only 2'3" compared to the 3' we jumped a couple weeks ago. I'm wearing two shirts, a sweater, a polarfleece jacket and that blue jacket in that picture. It was 30degrees and windy, I didn't ride till 8pm that night.
The internet has less apeal for me now then it used to. Especially after I started using the computer more only to find that I was de-admined without even so much as a "do you mind?". Rather hurt, ya know? Whenever I tried to make that place live I got little support and lotz of bitching. I'm sorry, it really angers me that no one thought to email me and ask if I wanted to loose my place, or if I was willing to put more time in to it. I was quietly and neatly replaced without a word and it reopened old and bitter wounds.
MEH.
Neil's at a friend's house, and I've got to get in the shower still.
I hate this state. I really do and I want to leave very badly. Neil thinks if we're careful we'll be able to leave next year. That means a lot, but I'm not getting my hopes up after past expierence.
Well I'm off to shower and maybe eat something.... I'll just leave ya'll with a pic of us from christmas day 06'. He's actually beardless, which only lasted a week. If you look carefully you can see my brother in the background with Harry & David Truffle Wrappers in his ears.
Toodles all....