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is it wrong to admit to feeling fundamentally different from nearly everybody, but also use it as some sort of a basis for self-pride?
is it wrong to (semi)actively work to maintain some feelings of exclusion/difference?
is it wrong to admit that i feel 100% certain that i have something HUGE in store for my life (although i don't know what it is [though i wouldn't be willing to rule out that it would have something to do with saving the world])?
i've been struggling with these sorts of issues in my head lately. i certainly don't feel like there is a higher power who has predetermined my role in this world, but there are times when it hits me that there is something i have to do before i die, and my heart swells and i am overcome with a complete sense of peace in my body. i hope this doesn't come across as some intense delusions of grandeur, but i've always favored honesty, and this is what i feel.
i'm ridiculous, yes. i'm vain, yes. i'm a jerk sometimes and i feel like i'm somehow intrinsically different than most folks.
but i feel like this is who i am supposed to be.
and i love life so much that i'm not willing to let it pass me or the people i love by.
i love you, and you make the world a better place for breathing and thinking the way you do.
yours,
brian.
is it wrong to (semi)actively work to maintain some feelings of exclusion/difference?
is it wrong to admit that i feel 100% certain that i have something HUGE in store for my life (although i don't know what it is [though i wouldn't be willing to rule out that it would have something to do with saving the world])?
i've been struggling with these sorts of issues in my head lately. i certainly don't feel like there is a higher power who has predetermined my role in this world, but there are times when it hits me that there is something i have to do before i die, and my heart swells and i am overcome with a complete sense of peace in my body. i hope this doesn't come across as some intense delusions of grandeur, but i've always favored honesty, and this is what i feel.
i'm ridiculous, yes. i'm vain, yes. i'm a jerk sometimes and i feel like i'm somehow intrinsically different than most folks.
but i feel like this is who i am supposed to be.
and i love life so much that i'm not willing to let it pass me or the people i love by.
i love you, and you make the world a better place for breathing and thinking the way you do.
yours,
brian.