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i don't think i've ever felt like this before, but all of a sudden its all hit me. it feels like the world is spinning and i don't even know if i want it to stop spinning, let alone where i want it to stop. i feel completely out of control adn even if i was in control, i'm not sure what i'd want to happen. senior year is supposed to be the best, but at this point i'm so confused. i have no idea what i want and from there i don't know how i'd go about getting it. and things i could always accept are now turned upside down and i can't even figure the basic things about me, let alone the rest of the world. i guess a lot of things have beeen building up to this point, but they all started tumbling down on me tonight. i wish someone could just stop me and say all the right things, but that really isn't even possible