Drew
This is bound to be a long entry... It's about a certain someone I've been trying to NOT think about for quite awhile. I got up super early so I took a nap from 11 to 1. I got up and was about to take a shower when Drew called and said he was like 30 minutes away. I jumped in the shower and got ready with butterflies in my stomach. I wore old jeans and a light green Abercrombie tee. I heard his car in the drive and I went downstairs to tell Nana we were leaving. He rang the doorbell and I answered. He was wearing a baseball cap and a blue polo shirt (I KNEW he'd be wearing a blue polo, I just knew it) and jeans with flip flops and a shell necklace. It made me smile because after all this time, we still freaking dress alike. There I am in my preppy flip flops and shell necklace matching him. Anyway, I open the screen door, smile and hug him then say HI. I kinda did it backwards but he seemed ok with it. I ran upstairs for a sweater and we went to his awesome black Mustang convertible. We put the top down since it was such a great day. Conversation was easy. We still have the same taste in music. And movies. We went to Avanti's (wow I missed Avanti's while I was in CA), we took all of aminute to decide what we were getting. We sat and talked for like an hour. I was still a bit apprehensive about the whole situation so my appetite wasn't up to par. I asked him if it felt too weird seeing me. He said he didn't think so, I said I still wasn't sure. He's still the same old Drew. Same gorgeous blue eyes and blond hair. Same laugh and smile. The same but different. I seriously luuuv his car. Driving back to my house I took a pic of him driving... not a very good one but still. I showed him my *terrible* senior pics and he picked the black and white one. We came back to my grama's house and decided to walk thru my old house to see the emptiness. There was some stilted conversation with my mom but we were able to get away. Lol. Walking back to Nana's house he said it was nice to see me again. I agreed. According to him I grew a little!! Yesssss! Saying goodbye was... not awkward, but hard in a way? For me at least. We might get together again down at U of I. Don't know yet. We tossed the idea around. During the time we spent together we kiddingly brought up some old stuff but then mutually turned away from that conversation. We were saying goodbye and we hugged and held on just a split-second too long and that was all I needed to take a trek down Memory Lane. I could -swear- he felt it too because we just looked at each other and turned away. I walked to the porch and opened the screen door, I asked him to call me when he got home so I knew he got there ok. But he said he'd call later when he's drunk. (That would be interesting.) I turned to watch him get in the car. I couldn't help but stare and wonder how he felt about the afternoon. Heck I'm still wondering how I feel.
Tonight Jason and I are watching a movie at my house which will be nice then tomorrow we're tux shopping. I read my horoscope like 5 minutes ago and it's so right on, how weird... Amanda Marie Glusco,
Your feelings seem pretty exposed right now, yet it's not necessarily unpleasant. You really want others to know who you are and what you are doing and by demonstrating your openness, you can make your position more acceptable to others. Be bold and take a chance; otherwise you'll never know what could have happened.
Hmmm. I think today was a good day. I'm not really sure how I feel or how I should feel but... I'm OK. I'm not emotional distraught, just okay for right now.
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Tonight Jason and I are watching a movie at my house which will be nice then tomorrow we're tux shopping. I read my horoscope like 5 minutes ago and it's so right on, how weird... Amanda Marie Glusco,
Your feelings seem pretty exposed right now, yet it's not necessarily unpleasant. You really want others to know who you are and what you are doing and by demonstrating your openness, you can make your position more acceptable to others. Be bold and take a chance; otherwise you'll never know what could have happened.
Hmmm. I think today was a good day. I'm not really sure how I feel or how I should feel but... I'm OK. I'm not emotional distraught, just okay for right now.
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