this is for katie.

[run_gus]

what the fuck is wrong with the world? so much, so very much. katie, i would've posted a comment on your site but it keeps shutting explorer down everytime i try to.. so consider this your comment from me. look, you are an awesome person and tons of fun to be around. i knew your family had issues (like all families) although, sometimes more severe than the average "perfect" little metamora family. this post is not to say "oh i know exactly how you feel" because i don't. no one can ever know exactly how you feel, because they aren't feeling it. you are. i'm sorry things are so rough for your mom and your relationship right now. the only thing i can do is offer suggestions, which whether they are a solution or not, may inspire hope. there is always another option. always. the option may not be ideal or even positive but it is what it is. you could try moving with a friend, you could take some of the money you've earned and buy a car (any car, as long as it moves), you could try to talk to your mom about her insanity, you could live with a relative, you could never talk to your parents again... i duno. don't you love how our parents blame their mistakes on us? the same way that it is somehow your fault you have medical problems, it is somehow brie's and my fault that our stepfather hates us. not that we really give a shit about him.. but that's not my point.. i think my point was that you know when you're responsible for something and when you're not. i would simply disregard your mother's words and acknowledge that she just can't handle the consquences of her actions.
mm, i bet this prolly didn't help much or at all, but we missed you at lunch the past 2 days and i hope i'll see you tomorrow or on sunday from 5-8 at my house for brie's and my goodbye party.
<3