ironically, there's beauty in the fall-out
I just updated my xangas, so this'll be a short one also. I'm quite homesick. Although NZ is beautiful, I have so much on my mind that dealing with my family is only adding to the stress. I'm still not ready for ONU financially and I'll be there in about 19 days. (Only 16 more days here!!) The kids and Brie are all right. I'm not going to say 'ok', because nothing here is OK. Ok doesn't cover it. My family is just as fucked up as ever. I'm depressed by the situation. I feel like I'm on the verge of tears but not having the time or privacy to give in, I'll be strong. I want to come home. I want to be warm. I want normal food. I feel so sad here, my family... is just depressing. My stepfather is still an ass, even more of one, if that's at all possible. My mom is stupid for following him here. I love her but God, look what has happened to us. Brie is riding the wave of popularity but deep down, she's not happy. The kids are great but they miss home too. I wish I could take them with me when I escape in 2 weeks and 2 days.