Broke?
Ok, I'm broke. Yeah, I seriously think I am. In fact I'm pretty certain.
I haven't dated anyone since Brandon... In July. I don't plan to anytime soon.. I can't. I don't trust people. I mean, it's not one of those dramatic "OMG I SHALL NEVER LOVE AGAIN" type deals. It's one of those... I seriously can't like anyone. I do not have any attraction towards anyone... And secondly, I don't trust anyone.
I mean.. With Brandon... He slept next to me every single day for nearly a month. And spent so much time w/ me... And cheated the next day, and I came to find out he made so much more horrible things behind my back.
But maybe I'm better off this way ya know? Like, I dont' wanna deal with anyone. Because I'm afraid I'll waste time.
Damn, I was so immature before... Like, I look back at conversation I used to have w/ my friend Zak... I used to be so fucking immature. I can't believe how overly dramatic I was... -Sigh- Maybe it was age...
I miss Megan... That's another thing... I miss her... I miss her... I miss her... And it's my fault I lost her. I'll never forgive myself for that. I read all the letters she wrote me... She was the best fucking friend I had ever had.. I could've ever asked for... If me giving my left arm would mean she'd be here again, I would. But, I lost her. And it was my fault...
-Sigh-
Time to go...
I should just be a hermit or something... Make things easier...
Maybe I'll swing towards girls now or something... Or I might become asexual, because I think that's the way I'm leaning...
~ME
I haven't dated anyone since Brandon... In July. I don't plan to anytime soon.. I can't. I don't trust people. I mean, it's not one of those dramatic "OMG I SHALL NEVER LOVE AGAIN" type deals. It's one of those... I seriously can't like anyone. I do not have any attraction towards anyone... And secondly, I don't trust anyone.
I mean.. With Brandon... He slept next to me every single day for nearly a month. And spent so much time w/ me... And cheated the next day, and I came to find out he made so much more horrible things behind my back.
But maybe I'm better off this way ya know? Like, I dont' wanna deal with anyone. Because I'm afraid I'll waste time.
Damn, I was so immature before... Like, I look back at conversation I used to have w/ my friend Zak... I used to be so fucking immature. I can't believe how overly dramatic I was... -Sigh- Maybe it was age...
I miss Megan... That's another thing... I miss her... I miss her... I miss her... And it's my fault I lost her. I'll never forgive myself for that. I read all the letters she wrote me... She was the best fucking friend I had ever had.. I could've ever asked for... If me giving my left arm would mean she'd be here again, I would. But, I lost her. And it was my fault...
-Sigh-
Time to go...
I should just be a hermit or something... Make things easier...
Maybe I'll swing towards girls now or something... Or I might become asexual, because I think that's the way I'm leaning...
~ME