someone in your life you can't let go....

[rumbushle]

i met the most influential person in my life (besides my husband) when i was in the 8th grade. i had just moved to a new school, and couldn't go on a field trip because we couldn't afford it. so they put us in this room and treated the day like study hall

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[uglyfatty1]

I really feel for you on this one. I had a best friend from high school. Him and I were like siblings. even when I went to undergrad he was the only one I kept in good contact with, and everytime I saw him it was like old times. never awkward. Then about 8 months ago I had given him a call and left a message. No return call. then again. the same. I called his mom to make sure I had the right number (i did), he had moved back home, so she said she'd tell him I had called when he got home from work. I waited ... nothing. I wrote him an email, then a letter, the letter said I didn't care what the reason was, but that I just missed him and wanted to know how he was doing... nothing. I called his mom once more (and all of this is over the last 8 months) and started getting teary. I asked her to please tell him I missed him very much and wanted to know how he was. Nothing. Now I have given up. I love him allot. I don't know why this has happen either or if there is a reason I deserve this. I figure its my fault in some way since most things usual are and I don't seem to have many friends.

[rumbushle]

ever since her, i won't let myself get close to anyone again. not like that.
i have my hubby, and that is it.
i push real people away, i just can't handle the stress and interruption in my life.

i am sorry you lost your friendship; it hurts.

[uglyfatty1]

yeah I push people away, but I don't want to live in isolation and fear. I am trying really hard to learn how to be social, with the help of my therapist.