i feel so lost.........ha ha
i want to lose, i haven't been eating much. my problem is drinking. i love to do it, would do it all day if i could.
but-when i drink, i usually get up and eat.
i am so fucking nasty anymore. i have to wear all my fat clothees, cuz i can't fit into anything.
why can't it just go away?????
i only eat breakfast. last night i had to eat dinner with the family, but it was chili, and i didn't eat any of the meat, and just had 1/2 bowl. then i drank like 10 beers and hit the bong.
got up int he middle of the night and drank some milk, and ate 2 oatmeal creme pies. >(
i have to work tonight, which is really becoming a blessing.......no food!
i wish i had someone to talk about this shit to; oh well, at least i can post on lost, and the people there actually relate to me.
it's lovely to be fucked up.
but-when i drink, i usually get up and eat.
i am so fucking nasty anymore. i have to wear all my fat clothees, cuz i can't fit into anything.
why can't it just go away?????
i only eat breakfast. last night i had to eat dinner with the family, but it was chili, and i didn't eat any of the meat, and just had 1/2 bowl. then i drank like 10 beers and hit the bong.
got up int he middle of the night and drank some milk, and ate 2 oatmeal creme pies. >(
i have to work tonight, which is really becoming a blessing.......no food!
i wish i had someone to talk about this shit to; oh well, at least i can post on lost, and the people there actually relate to me.
it's lovely to be fucked up.