It's time to sleep
I want to say I don't care anymore. The funniest part is that people seem to understand that I really don't care. So why can't I say it aloud?
I'm gonna create a new LJ-account for my English journal because this "ruiskorpi" is driving me mad and I want to do something new.
I'm scared and there's nobody for me to say that there's no reason to be afraid because I'm here. Did you know that Australian bands make the most powerful and beautiful music ever? I want to see Cog or The Butterfly Effect live. These songs are making me feel sad, bitter.
I'm afraid to go to nurse tomorrow and ask her some questions. It's quite possible that she'll something that I don't want to hear ever but sometime I've to face the truth even though it'd be ugly. I've never liked hospitals, they always make me sick and people there are usually old, almost dead, trying to hang on life and wishing for eternal life like me. I don't want to be grey. It's my worst nightmare. And if I don't do anything, it will become true. The main reason why I'd like to commit suicide when I turn 40.
I'm gonna create a new LJ-account for my English journal because this "ruiskorpi" is driving me mad and I want to do something new.
I'm scared and there's nobody for me to say that there's no reason to be afraid because I'm here. Did you know that Australian bands make the most powerful and beautiful music ever? I want to see Cog or The Butterfly Effect live. These songs are making me feel sad, bitter.
I'm afraid to go to nurse tomorrow and ask her some questions. It's quite possible that she'll something that I don't want to hear ever but sometime I've to face the truth even though it'd be ugly. I've never liked hospitals, they always make me sick and people there are usually old, almost dead, trying to hang on life and wishing for eternal life like me. I don't want to be grey. It's my worst nightmare. And if I don't do anything, it will become true. The main reason why I'd like to commit suicide when I turn 40.