Humiliation
I'm guilty of looking for the best in people. Searching every square inch so as I miss all the signs. Including the blatant ' don't think nice things about me I'm a bad dude'. But then there are the voice mails and the nick names and calling you for help.
I am humiliated.
My friend put it best ' you are being devalued' . That really hurt to hear.
However it hurt so much I finally had that light bulb moment. The penny dropped. What ever other cliche you can think of.
I think you are gutless and everything you say you're not. The way you treated me was cold and self serving. I think you are weak and I deserve more.
I told you a long time ago I only want people in my life who add value.
You are worthless.