bend / snap.

[ruinedcourtyard]

I should be happy right now

i have a pretty good boyfriend,
a really good one.

but i'm alone with or without him.
and i'm expected to make all these decisions,
gives me a headache, ya know?
But i told myself I'd change for sure.
And i lied.
I said i'd try and i knew all this time what i was doing was wrong.
I gave up when i was just about to kick off and go,
I never went anywhere.

i was bred like a domestic puppy, but seldom do i do tricks..
and im just useless.
and okay, i'm a lameass.

so whatever, i'm going back to school in january, i know you're all so proud of me.
i am going for stage makeup and writing(again). i signed up this morning and made sure i got the good classes
stage makeup should be preetty sweet. it's only on tuesdays and from 4pm -7pm.
can not wait, i'd love to move to the city someday and do makeup for performers on broadway or something.
thats probably all i'll be taking
so, i'm not gonna be a full time student. cause we all saw how that worked out last time...
and well it didn't.

188 days till summer <3