I'm at it again.
I'm in a funk. Like the kind where I'm never really happy, and I don't know why.
Urgh. I hate when I get like this. I must be horrendously annoying.
But I feel antsy, irritated, depressed, all those other little emotions that just make you... blah.
I keep flipping back and forth between so bored I want to tear my own hair out and so freaking depressed I want to cry. But I don't really have anything to be depressed ABOUT. *bashes head against wall* Why is it that I can tell people all kinds of useless facts about stupid shit, and all kinds of usefull things for school, but I can't for the life of me figure out what the hell is wrong with me?
urgh. Rant over I guess.
And I can still use that hug or something. Actually, it's worse now. Stupid wedding. It was so perfect. Seriously, weather, events, people. It was all just... perfect. And they love each other so much... *sigh* I think part of this funk is because I'm afraid I'll never really get that. That I'm just too... selfish I guess, to ever really hold down a relationship. That I'm still out on the perifery of all my peer groups... like I don't really belong anywhere.
Well that was sufficiently emo... and with that, I'mma end this before I break out the (metaphorical) razor blades.
Urgh. I hate when I get like this. I must be horrendously annoying.
But I feel antsy, irritated, depressed, all those other little emotions that just make you... blah.
I keep flipping back and forth between so bored I want to tear my own hair out and so freaking depressed I want to cry. But I don't really have anything to be depressed ABOUT. *bashes head against wall* Why is it that I can tell people all kinds of useless facts about stupid shit, and all kinds of usefull things for school, but I can't for the life of me figure out what the hell is wrong with me?
urgh. Rant over I guess.
And I can still use that hug or something. Actually, it's worse now. Stupid wedding. It was so perfect. Seriously, weather, events, people. It was all just... perfect. And they love each other so much... *sigh* I think part of this funk is because I'm afraid I'll never really get that. That I'm just too... selfish I guess, to ever really hold down a relationship. That I'm still out on the perifery of all my peer groups... like I don't really belong anywhere.
Well that was sufficiently emo... and with that, I'mma end this before I break out the (metaphorical) razor blades.