I have to get this out
To all those who I have heard say, "I would rather fight to the death than be raped": Have a gun be put to your head. You never realize until faced with that decision that life is better. Maybe I should have fought back, but when he threatened to pull that trigger, life became a hell of a lot more important. I have a lot of guilt that I didn't do more, that I was so compliant, but fuck, I had a gun pressed into my back. All I could think about was never seeing my boyfriend, never seeing my mother, never seeing anyone again. I chose life. Who the fuck is anyone to tell me I was wrong?