The Day is dragging.... but almost over. THANK GOD!!
March 15... a day I use to love, turned into a day I HATE... It's been over for 3 years between my ex and I. Each year gets worse :( The ex did something dumb (as usual)
She IM'd me on AOL this morning, and asked how I was doing... Nonchalantly, of course.
My reply.. "I'm fine". She asked, "are you ok?" My reply again.. "I'm Fine".
The last 2 years, she woke up to an e-mail on this day with me pouring my heart out to her telling her everything I missed about her... About us. Today, I just feel a whole lot differently.
I wanted to say, "You are lucky I'm even speaking to you, do you know how much you hurt me, do you know how much it hurts to talk to you? Do you know how hard it is to work right around the corner from you? Do you know how hard it is to have to pass your job everyday to get to mine? Do you know I hate you for cheating on me with the woman that you are now sharing your life with? Fuck You! Drop dead you fucking bitch...."
I didn't of course.. I just choose to take life as I will now give it, Raw, with no lube...
Of course, I worked nonstop most of the day... 13 hours seem to fly by when I spend some time talking to my online friends, and flirting with the femmes on B-F.com *grin*
March 16, another day.... a better brighter day... I already did something different today, so it only gets better tomorrow.
She IM'd me on AOL this morning, and asked how I was doing... Nonchalantly, of course.
My reply.. "I'm fine". She asked, "are you ok?" My reply again.. "I'm Fine".
The last 2 years, she woke up to an e-mail on this day with me pouring my heart out to her telling her everything I missed about her... About us. Today, I just feel a whole lot differently.
I wanted to say, "You are lucky I'm even speaking to you, do you know how much you hurt me, do you know how much it hurts to talk to you? Do you know how hard it is to work right around the corner from you? Do you know how hard it is to have to pass your job everyday to get to mine? Do you know I hate you for cheating on me with the woman that you are now sharing your life with? Fuck You! Drop dead you fucking bitch...."
I didn't of course.. I just choose to take life as I will now give it, Raw, with no lube...
Of course, I worked nonstop most of the day... 13 hours seem to fly by when I spend some time talking to my online friends, and flirting with the femmes on B-F.com *grin*
March 16, another day.... a better brighter day... I already did something different today, so it only gets better tomorrow.