Another kind soul passes on...
For a long time now a close friend of mines mom has been very ill with cancer. I've known him for 7 years now and in the few times I have been to his house to visit I became close to her, we talked a lot about relationships, and life, and astrology (she was actually the person who got me interested in it) Anyways at 3:40 pm EST she passed away, leaving her husband, son and daughter to continue on without her. I hurt a lot for my friend, I can't imagine what it is like to lose a parent. But also I fear for myself and my own parents, what would I do if one of them were to die tomorrow, would I even be able to handle it emotionally, or would I be driven to suicide. A lot of people tell me that it is rediculous to be supersticious, but my grandfather died when my dad was 19, in January I believe, I am 19 and as every day grows closer to January I fear for the worst, I probably shouldn't, and things will probably get better once I turn 20, but Mrs. Schonschack passing away today really hit home with me, not only will I never see her again, or be able to speak with her, but I am reminded of my own mortality and the mortality of those around me. I'm fighting really hard to hold back the tears right now, and I think I am going to lose this fight as time progresses. At least I can rest assured that she died a christian, and that she is now in a better place, with God. Beyond that, I have been looking through my songs to find something to post in her honor, and thus, this one is for you Susan...
"The Last Song" by X Japan
Watching the stars till they're gone
Like an actor all alone
Who never knew the story he was in
Who never knew the story ends.
Like the sky reflecting my heart
All the colors become visible
When the morning begins
I'll read the last line
Owaranai ame dakishimeta yoru ga asa o mukaeru
Kokoro wa mada nureta mama
In endless rain I've been walking
Like a poet feeling pain
Trying to find the answers
Trying to hide the tears
But it was just a circle
That never ends
When the rain stops, I'll turn the page
The page of the first chapter
Kizutsuku dake kizutsuite wakatta hazu no kotae o
Doushite mada toi kaketeru
Am I wrong to be hurt
Am I wrong to feel pain
Am I wrong to be in the rain
Am I wrong to wish the night won't end
Am I wrong to cry
But I know, It's not wrong to sing The Last Song
Cause forever fades
Kigatsukeba mata hikari-yoru no sora o mitsumeteru
Sukoshi-zutsu kiete yuku OUR MEMORIES
Kizutsuku dake kizutsuite wakatta hazu no kotae o
Doushite mada toi kaketeru
I see red
I see blue
But the silver lining gradually takes over
When the morning begins
I'll be in the next chapter
Owaranai ame dakishimeta yoru ga asa o mukaeru
Kokoro wa mada nureta mama
Kizutsuku dake kizutsuite wakatta hazu no kotae o
Doushite mada toi kaketeru
The truth is, that even though she is no longer with us in this world, she is in a better place, where her soul is finally at rest, and their she will wait for her family, and her love for them will live on. As sad as this day is, and as freely as the tears are falling from my eyes, we must remember to live on and be happy she is in a better place. My prayers go out to the Schonschack family and anyone else who was fortunate enough to know such a kind woman. We miss you Susan...
Until we meet again,
Alan-San
"The Last Song" by X Japan
Watching the stars till they're gone
Like an actor all alone
Who never knew the story he was in
Who never knew the story ends.
Like the sky reflecting my heart
All the colors become visible
When the morning begins
I'll read the last line
Owaranai ame dakishimeta yoru ga asa o mukaeru
Kokoro wa mada nureta mama
In endless rain I've been walking
Like a poet feeling pain
Trying to find the answers
Trying to hide the tears
But it was just a circle
That never ends
When the rain stops, I'll turn the page
The page of the first chapter
Kizutsuku dake kizutsuite wakatta hazu no kotae o
Doushite mada toi kaketeru
Am I wrong to be hurt
Am I wrong to feel pain
Am I wrong to be in the rain
Am I wrong to wish the night won't end
Am I wrong to cry
But I know, It's not wrong to sing The Last Song
Cause forever fades
Kigatsukeba mata hikari-yoru no sora o mitsumeteru
Sukoshi-zutsu kiete yuku OUR MEMORIES
Kizutsuku dake kizutsuite wakatta hazu no kotae o
Doushite mada toi kaketeru
I see red
I see blue
But the silver lining gradually takes over
When the morning begins
I'll be in the next chapter
Owaranai ame dakishimeta yoru ga asa o mukaeru
Kokoro wa mada nureta mama
Kizutsuku dake kizutsuite wakatta hazu no kotae o
Doushite mada toi kaketeru
The truth is, that even though she is no longer with us in this world, she is in a better place, where her soul is finally at rest, and their she will wait for her family, and her love for them will live on. As sad as this day is, and as freely as the tears are falling from my eyes, we must remember to live on and be happy she is in a better place. My prayers go out to the Schonschack family and anyone else who was fortunate enough to know such a kind woman. We miss you Susan...
Until we meet again,
Alan-San