to you..
this is just some random stuff on my mind that i can never say to who i want to so i'm writing it here where i know it won't get read by her.. if you don't know me well it will make no sense so if you read it, sorry if ya get lost.
i'm sorry. i know i have no reason to apologize because i haven't done anything wrong but love you. apparently that was just too much and i failed to notice. you keep saying you're afraid to get close to anyone again.. honestly i think its a crock of shit. why then did you get so entirely attached for the month i was there then completley cut off all ties and act as if i were a bother to you? one day you were upset that i didn't call you on my break, then i don't talk to you for weeks. one day you love me with all your heart and the next you just have too much going on to even remember me. so i may be exaggerating a little but not much, and thats exactly what it feels like on my part. i just don't understand. you were so grateful that i was 'giving you a second chance'. it never really felt like that to me but now that you've done this to me again, i see thats exactly what it was. you hurt me the first time but i never got over you. so i gave you another chance. well you hurt me again, but this time that's it. i've lived the past 2 years wondering what life would be like if i could have been with you. well it couldn't work because you couldn't possibly ever love me as much as i love you and i realize that. i don't need someone who is going to string me along just like before. i'm better than that. so that's all there is to it, i guess i was looking for a proper closure and now it's right in my face. i'm walking through that door and that's all there is to it. i still love you and i always will because i care about you and i can't help it. i hate that i love you like i do, but like i said, i can't quite help it. but by no means does that mean i'm gonna be the same person i have been the past 2 years. i'm living for me now. i'll see you around.
i'm sorry. i know i have no reason to apologize because i haven't done anything wrong but love you. apparently that was just too much and i failed to notice. you keep saying you're afraid to get close to anyone again.. honestly i think its a crock of shit. why then did you get so entirely attached for the month i was there then completley cut off all ties and act as if i were a bother to you? one day you were upset that i didn't call you on my break, then i don't talk to you for weeks. one day you love me with all your heart and the next you just have too much going on to even remember me. so i may be exaggerating a little but not much, and thats exactly what it feels like on my part. i just don't understand. you were so grateful that i was 'giving you a second chance'. it never really felt like that to me but now that you've done this to me again, i see thats exactly what it was. you hurt me the first time but i never got over you. so i gave you another chance. well you hurt me again, but this time that's it. i've lived the past 2 years wondering what life would be like if i could have been with you. well it couldn't work because you couldn't possibly ever love me as much as i love you and i realize that. i don't need someone who is going to string me along just like before. i'm better than that. so that's all there is to it, i guess i was looking for a proper closure and now it's right in my face. i'm walking through that door and that's all there is to it. i still love you and i always will because i care about you and i can't help it. i hate that i love you like i do, but like i said, i can't quite help it. but by no means does that mean i'm gonna be the same person i have been the past 2 years. i'm living for me now. i'll see you around.