Something More Like a Feeling
Yesterday, I was up in Tallahassee all day helping my cousins move into their new house. This is the cousin that was Mrs. Tallahassee and competed for Mrs. Florida. Needless to say.... I made 5 loads of nothing but clothes for her and Chris and new baby. And I mean... the ENTIRE car was packed, trunk and all! But anyhow... it was alot of fun being with them... not to mention meeting a cute guy named Jay...
Christmas is coming very, very quickly. And I feel like I'm on a merry-go-round that's going a little too fast for my liking. I love Christmastime b/c I feel like it brings out the best in other people, but I'm just exhausted with all the work I've had to do in these past couple of weeks. I find myself just wanting to be alone and sleep, but I never do, b/c I must be sociable and help friends and families that happen to be going through a hard time right now. My old friend Courtney got pregnant by a black boy... and her parents are very important people @ church and thru the school system, so needless to say... they're pissed. My heart goes out to her, b/c she was always just trying to find anyone who would give her attention b/c her parents never gave it. She always had weight issues and inferiority issues b/c of how her parents idoloized her sister when they were younger. I also have to find some time to go see Mrs. Linda b/c she's been having a rough time. They've been friends of our family since back when my dad went to grade school. But her oldest son has been arrested a couple of times for selling drugs, and is a moron who doesn't learn from his mistakes. The middle son hasn't gotten caught, but lives the same life style. But the youngest one... we used to still have hope for. He got sent to alternative school b/c he got in a fight at school and knocked some guy out. But then there was a drug check there and some guy threw him a back of coke... he caught it and put it down his pants. He gave it to the guy as soon as he came in, and ratted out the boy who gave it to him, but he still got arrested... he's only like 16. The sad thing is... they come from a really really good family. They were brought up just as my brother and I both were. Mrs Linda always wanted a daughter... and I was the closest she had to it, so I feel like I should be there some.
As for my family... we're doing ok. Josh is home from St Louis, and starting his work here finally. I'm kinda sad about him not being home for Christmas b/c this will be the first year that he won't be here in the morning to open gifts, so we're postponning that part until he gets here. I've found lately... that I've only listened to the 2 cds Marc gave me before break. And that's all I ever want to listen to... somwhat odd to me. hmmmm. I talked to him Monday and I'll probably talk to him tonight, and I'm even thinking of spending New Year's Eve down there... but that's still up in the air b/c this cute guy Jay asked me to come back to Tallahassee to come to this big concert thing. Well... I have to get back to cleaning, blah! Hope everyone is having a good break!!