Angry Tara
So... once again I've managed to screw up a potentially good
thing. Nothing new... that's what my impulsive behavior does from
time to time... esp under so much stress and crap going on. Let's
see where to start... I was confused b/c Wedneday nite, Marc and I
decided to hang out, and he kissed me. So of course things were
weird. I was all giddy like a little school girl that nite once I
finally went to bed, but by morning... I was contemplating the whole
thing, like whether or not I wanted it to be like that between
us. I still have a crush on Andrew, and I'm almost tempted to
make a move before I leave in a few hours. But I know I will
chicken out. I've been in a crappy mood, b/c I'm supposed to be
driving to Jax today to pick up my brother from the airport as a
surprise... but I found out he's not coming home for another week...
and I miss him desperately b/c he hasn't called lately either.
And after 4 finals in two days... I'm still feeling overwhelmed
On a bright note, I got $120 today... for selling back 3 books. I was stoked. I was going to get a tattoo, but Andrew didn't have time to draw one for me, but he's currently working on one for me. I drank tonight.. .then went to Prana, wearing my HOT dress. But obviously... I've lost my touch somewhere... :( Oh well... long story short... I was frustrated for a lot of different reasons, and hadn't gotten it out, so when I felt like Marc was choosing my friend over me... I was kinda hurt. And I let it show, which is rule #1 of don't's... NEVER LET THEM SEE YOU HURT or DOWN. Needless to say... we've been having a convo stemmed from the events of this past week since like 345am... but on a positive note... we're going to hopefully be friends again, which leaves me free to make the moves on Andrew! lol
Yeah, I'm fickle right now, and have no idea what I want or need... so things are really crazy. But I decided when I go home, that I'm going to try an experiment with some guy friends. Objective: to see if kissing your friends makes things awkward. Results will be posted sometime during the month... but as for now I'm exhausted and its 730 and I'm going to bed! goodnite
On a bright note, I got $120 today... for selling back 3 books. I was stoked. I was going to get a tattoo, but Andrew didn't have time to draw one for me, but he's currently working on one for me. I drank tonight.. .then went to Prana, wearing my HOT dress. But obviously... I've lost my touch somewhere... :( Oh well... long story short... I was frustrated for a lot of different reasons, and hadn't gotten it out, so when I felt like Marc was choosing my friend over me... I was kinda hurt. And I let it show, which is rule #1 of don't's... NEVER LET THEM SEE YOU HURT or DOWN. Needless to say... we've been having a convo stemmed from the events of this past week since like 345am... but on a positive note... we're going to hopefully be friends again, which leaves me free to make the moves on Andrew! lol
Yeah, I'm fickle right now, and have no idea what I want or need... so things are really crazy. But I decided when I go home, that I'm going to try an experiment with some guy friends. Objective: to see if kissing your friends makes things awkward. Results will be posted sometime during the month... but as for now I'm exhausted and its 730 and I'm going to bed! goodnite