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im a sneezing.
i had fun at ann's wish i coulda stayed longer. it made me feel VERY nostalgic. like "ohhh, this is it. this is our summer and this is THE party that ends o'seis senoirs.
i miss my sister already. the other night i cuddled with her and bawled.
i got a laptop!
packing so far has ben a disaster
so was the cake i tried to make tonight.
but i have to sort out some feelings.
no doubt, this summer was not a fave. this whole year has been me stuck in a rut. and i think that negative energy has been making me feel really nervous about costa rica. like, what if nobody there excites me? or if i feel overwhelmed by their accomplishment or dedication? what if nobody gets it? I have been so long without somebody to hang onto. im an independent girl, but it would be nice to be close to somebody. actually close. to hang out with on a regular basis. you know, like normal friends do, i guess.
im actually really glad i took those self defence classes. not only do i know some pretty cool things, but im back in the zone. when i started I was still kindof like uhm okay whatev. but now im fierce.
I think that's a big part of it. being able to respond and do it full out.
i love tompage more than you.
i had fun at ann's wish i coulda stayed longer. it made me feel VERY nostalgic. like "ohhh, this is it. this is our summer and this is THE party that ends o'seis senoirs.
i miss my sister already. the other night i cuddled with her and bawled.
i got a laptop!
packing so far has ben a disaster
so was the cake i tried to make tonight.
but i have to sort out some feelings.
no doubt, this summer was not a fave. this whole year has been me stuck in a rut. and i think that negative energy has been making me feel really nervous about costa rica. like, what if nobody there excites me? or if i feel overwhelmed by their accomplishment or dedication? what if nobody gets it? I have been so long without somebody to hang onto. im an independent girl, but it would be nice to be close to somebody. actually close. to hang out with on a regular basis. you know, like normal friends do, i guess.
im actually really glad i took those self defence classes. not only do i know some pretty cool things, but im back in the zone. when i started I was still kindof like uhm okay whatev. but now im fierce.
I think that's a big part of it. being able to respond and do it full out.
i love tompage more than you.