well live journal your my only friend.
twitter and facebook are gone.
why bother with love if it never lasts. i mean we see it everyday. in our families, friends, society? divorce break ups cheating jealousy etc.and yet we secretly look for it. i mean the past month has been hell with a few moments of bliss. but the moments of bliss keep me on this path searching for love, even though the hellish moments definatly out weigh the great moments. still with me?
for every 1 great amazing beautiful moment, there are 100 horrible ones. now looking from the outside in you say well that aint worth it, why deal with it.
but being the person on the inside for some reason that 1 moment is worth it.
everyday i am reminded of my fall/winter love, my best friend that i pushed away.
truth be told im not the only one who loves this girl.
we all front, we all say were your friend but its definatly more of us wanting to be with you. well when everyones kind of competeing for a girl (who might have no interest with any of us) and drama begins, the shit talk begins.
truth be told i messed up. you know exactly what i did that day. but ever since then i havent lied. every word i spoke was genuine.
Now, i have talked about this whole situation to my closest "friends"
well those close friends might hypotheticly move words around. might scew the truth a bit.
but because of that day i am in that position where i cant defend myself.
i guess its what i deserve.
ive talked to girls. ive tried to find ways to get you off my mind, but i just cant. i try so hard to stop looking at your picture just so i can sleep. but those thoughts are always in my head of you.
holy shit this is the longest entry ever! if someones actually reading this i would be really surprised. i guess with no twitter or facebook i have nothing else to do..
why bother with love if it never lasts. i mean we see it everyday. in our families, friends, society? divorce break ups cheating jealousy etc.and yet we secretly look for it. i mean the past month has been hell with a few moments of bliss. but the moments of bliss keep me on this path searching for love, even though the hellish moments definatly out weigh the great moments. still with me?
for every 1 great amazing beautiful moment, there are 100 horrible ones. now looking from the outside in you say well that aint worth it, why deal with it.
but being the person on the inside for some reason that 1 moment is worth it.
everyday i am reminded of my fall/winter love, my best friend that i pushed away.
truth be told im not the only one who loves this girl.
we all front, we all say were your friend but its definatly more of us wanting to be with you. well when everyones kind of competeing for a girl (who might have no interest with any of us) and drama begins, the shit talk begins.
truth be told i messed up. you know exactly what i did that day. but ever since then i havent lied. every word i spoke was genuine.
Now, i have talked about this whole situation to my closest "friends"
well those close friends might hypotheticly move words around. might scew the truth a bit.
but because of that day i am in that position where i cant defend myself.
i guess its what i deserve.
ive talked to girls. ive tried to find ways to get you off my mind, but i just cant. i try so hard to stop looking at your picture just so i can sleep. but those thoughts are always in my head of you.
holy shit this is the longest entry ever! if someones actually reading this i would be really surprised. i guess with no twitter or facebook i have nothing else to do..