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Fuck me.
I never thought something would be so frustrating. College makes me want to cry.
My counselor said that I could get into almost any school I wanted, he never told me that I couldn't get a loan for it. I don't have a co-signer, so I can't get a loan for that much money to pay for school. So I guess I can only afford a cal state - if that. Fabu-fucking-lous. That was a waste of a whole goddamn semester, actually 2 whole freaking years. I totally had my hopes all up for going away to college, working only part time and getting an awesome education that was finally challenging for me. But no. I have no family and I have no parents, therefore I have no options.
Now I will go to Fullerton. I'm very indifferent about Fullerton. I guess since I plan on getting my masters, it really wont matter where I get my bachelors. Plus, I can get my bachelors with a higher GPA than I would at Berkeley, and then I can transfer to Berkeley in 2 years to get my masters & maybe even get some scholarships. All in all, I'll save like 20+ grand - and since it's MY money we are talking about here.. that is very nice. But all my work at OCC seems like a waste now. I'm really trying to stay positive about this whole situation, life is life - you have to roll with the punches.
But I want goddamn parents already. I've lived my whole life like this, and it FUCKING BLOWS. I just can't believe how far I've come to overcome everything in life, but still how far I have left to go. Some people I know have great lives and are very lucky to have the opportunities they do - and they do not even capitalize on it.
I never thought something would be so frustrating. College makes me want to cry.
My counselor said that I could get into almost any school I wanted, he never told me that I couldn't get a loan for it. I don't have a co-signer, so I can't get a loan for that much money to pay for school. So I guess I can only afford a cal state - if that. Fabu-fucking-lous. That was a waste of a whole goddamn semester, actually 2 whole freaking years. I totally had my hopes all up for going away to college, working only part time and getting an awesome education that was finally challenging for me. But no. I have no family and I have no parents, therefore I have no options.
Now I will go to Fullerton. I'm very indifferent about Fullerton. I guess since I plan on getting my masters, it really wont matter where I get my bachelors. Plus, I can get my bachelors with a higher GPA than I would at Berkeley, and then I can transfer to Berkeley in 2 years to get my masters & maybe even get some scholarships. All in all, I'll save like 20+ grand - and since it's MY money we are talking about here.. that is very nice. But all my work at OCC seems like a waste now. I'm really trying to stay positive about this whole situation, life is life - you have to roll with the punches.
But I want goddamn parents already. I've lived my whole life like this, and it FUCKING BLOWS. I just can't believe how far I've come to overcome everything in life, but still how far I have left to go. Some people I know have great lives and are very lucky to have the opportunities they do - and they do not even capitalize on it.