Entry #62- Distant Starlight.
The past weekend was pretty nice. I actually had some time off, which I mainly used to relax from after all of the overtime and work that I had put in from the previous week.
I spent most of the time finding out about SPC's and other related music files. Found many songs I hadn't heard in almost 10 years or more.. so it really made me happy! ^ ^
And speaking of which, I've heard a few songs which are from the Parodius series.. So far, I've absolutely LOVED each song I've heard from that series so far, which was most from Parodius 2, and one song from Parodius 4. Out of curiosity, would anyone happen to know any info on the Parodius games, or where to find any Parodius soundtracks? I'll be most grateful.
On a good note, I've made a few more new friends while browsing a few LJ's and art sites. Hello to chibikeba and daigo_zha! ^ ^
I've been trying to use my free time to develop a web-site that me and my best friend are interested in starting, which'll be an art site (and whatever else we can come up with), but I haven't had much luck with it.. Hopefully I'll be able to get enough done soon to actually establish the site..
Though for the past while now, there's been a certain sadness that's been lingering within me... It vanished for awhile, but for the past few weeks, it's been hanging around with me, and it's been causing me to fall into deep depression spells... Now that I know truly what it's about, I can explain..
Have you ever cared for someone so very much, and wished to be as important to them as they are to you? Then find out that they care more for another person, or something else, and very seldom ever see you... Maybe it's a selfish feeling, but this is something that I've experienced quite a few times as of recently, with family, friends (both online and in person), as well as people whom I consider really close and special...
I've been trying to put this feeling behind me and keep going, because there's still so many wonderful things out there in life to experience, many new friends to make, and other things to do, but this keeps holding me back.. I truly don't wish to hurt anyone either..
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.. Just have to have faith.
Thank you everyone who considers me a friend, whether if I know you very well, don't know you all that well, or if I've just met you recently. You all mean a lot to me, and this is what's been giving me motivation for going on for so long.
~Rudy Startail
I spent most of the time finding out about SPC's and other related music files. Found many songs I hadn't heard in almost 10 years or more.. so it really made me happy! ^ ^
And speaking of which, I've heard a few songs which are from the Parodius series.. So far, I've absolutely LOVED each song I've heard from that series so far, which was most from Parodius 2, and one song from Parodius 4. Out of curiosity, would anyone happen to know any info on the Parodius games, or where to find any Parodius soundtracks? I'll be most grateful.
On a good note, I've made a few more new friends while browsing a few LJ's and art sites. Hello to chibikeba and daigo_zha! ^ ^
I've been trying to use my free time to develop a web-site that me and my best friend are interested in starting, which'll be an art site (and whatever else we can come up with), but I haven't had much luck with it.. Hopefully I'll be able to get enough done soon to actually establish the site..
Though for the past while now, there's been a certain sadness that's been lingering within me... It vanished for awhile, but for the past few weeks, it's been hanging around with me, and it's been causing me to fall into deep depression spells... Now that I know truly what it's about, I can explain..
Have you ever cared for someone so very much, and wished to be as important to them as they are to you? Then find out that they care more for another person, or something else, and very seldom ever see you... Maybe it's a selfish feeling, but this is something that I've experienced quite a few times as of recently, with family, friends (both online and in person), as well as people whom I consider really close and special...
I've been trying to put this feeling behind me and keep going, because there's still so many wonderful things out there in life to experience, many new friends to make, and other things to do, but this keeps holding me back.. I truly don't wish to hurt anyone either..
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.. Just have to have faith.
Thank you everyone who considers me a friend, whether if I know you very well, don't know you all that well, or if I've just met you recently. You all mean a lot to me, and this is what's been giving me motivation for going on for so long.
~Rudy Startail