I'm really bad.
Sorry - It appears I am really bad at this updating thing. I guess I just don't have much to say.
Anyway, I'm in Utica, NY. I just got fully trained in another area of the Zoo, so I now am trained in 3 of the 4 areas (North Trek, Diets, and Asian Realm/Childrens Zoo). I enjoy these areas. They all have something different that I really enjoy and something that is more difficult to do. The animals are awesome and I really enjoy caring for them.
Other than that, New York is alright. There is some beautiful country side around here. Yesterday, I took a drive to an apple orchard. It was about an hour drive, but through some gorgeous areas with the fall colors really starting to show. It was a nice, crisp day too, which made the drive very enjoyable. Driving my car really relaxes and rejuvenates me. My spirit felt much better during the drive and afterwards.
I went alone. I have one friend here that I hang out with and is also a co-worker, but other than that, I am fairly on my own. It can be lonely, even though I am very much the type of person who enjoys my own space and solitude. I have been called a hermit before . Being alone on the trip to the orchard really made me think and feel very... connected to things around me. At the same time though, I felt very isolated from my friends and other people.
I suppose part of the isolation feeling is from the fact that their is no communication between my college friends and myself anymore. The ones still at college don't really speak to me anymore for some reason. I truly don't know why unless it is do to the fact that I am far away and not really a part of the college atmosphere and things going on in that corner of the world anymore. It is kind of depressing and heartbreaking in a way. I always thought that I would have life long friends coming out of college, but, truthfully, I don't feel like I have any at all.
I admit, sometimes all of this gets to me, but I am the type of person who can fairly successfully convince myself that I don't need people and I don't need close friends. Deep down I think I know better, but I am very good at pretending and hiding it all.
Oh, another development in my life is the search for a part-time evening job. The zoo pay sucks, and I have loans coming due in a month or so, hence the need for a second job. I was offered a part-time cashiering position at Price Chopper, a local grocery store chain. I might take it and see how things go, but I am not going to stress over this job. Its a second job and not worth it.
Today is the last day of my weekend and I still have a lot to do to prepare for the week. I will try to update more often, but I've made that statement before . Until next time...
Anyway, I'm in Utica, NY. I just got fully trained in another area of the Zoo, so I now am trained in 3 of the 4 areas (North Trek, Diets, and Asian Realm/Childrens Zoo). I enjoy these areas. They all have something different that I really enjoy and something that is more difficult to do. The animals are awesome and I really enjoy caring for them.
Other than that, New York is alright. There is some beautiful country side around here. Yesterday, I took a drive to an apple orchard. It was about an hour drive, but through some gorgeous areas with the fall colors really starting to show. It was a nice, crisp day too, which made the drive very enjoyable. Driving my car really relaxes and rejuvenates me. My spirit felt much better during the drive and afterwards.
I went alone. I have one friend here that I hang out with and is also a co-worker, but other than that, I am fairly on my own. It can be lonely, even though I am very much the type of person who enjoys my own space and solitude. I have been called a hermit before . Being alone on the trip to the orchard really made me think and feel very... connected to things around me. At the same time though, I felt very isolated from my friends and other people.
I suppose part of the isolation feeling is from the fact that their is no communication between my college friends and myself anymore. The ones still at college don't really speak to me anymore for some reason. I truly don't know why unless it is do to the fact that I am far away and not really a part of the college atmosphere and things going on in that corner of the world anymore. It is kind of depressing and heartbreaking in a way. I always thought that I would have life long friends coming out of college, but, truthfully, I don't feel like I have any at all.
I admit, sometimes all of this gets to me, but I am the type of person who can fairly successfully convince myself that I don't need people and I don't need close friends. Deep down I think I know better, but I am very good at pretending and hiding it all.
Oh, another development in my life is the search for a part-time evening job. The zoo pay sucks, and I have loans coming due in a month or so, hence the need for a second job. I was offered a part-time cashiering position at Price Chopper, a local grocery store chain. I might take it and see how things go, but I am not going to stress over this job. Its a second job and not worth it.
Today is the last day of my weekend and I still have a lot to do to prepare for the week. I will try to update more often, but I've made that statement before . Until next time...