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[rudiegotsoul241]

i'm making checklists in my head
smile (check)
breathe (check)
sleep (check)
remember how to wake up (check)

i count everything without noticing
chew before swallowing
tap out rhythms while i'm waiting
for nobody to call.

there's a set of rules you've got to follow
if you want to keep on going
i tried to make a list of them
but eventually my pen ran out of ink
which is probably for the best
because no one reads my writing anyway
or at least they shouldn't
there are better things they could be doing.

and none of the words stay on beat
and i'm really terrible at rhyming
and structure
and at finishing anything
and every sentence runs into the next
and i've got too many thoughts to write down
and i can never find my typewriter
and i get the urge to draw sometimes
but everything looks flat
and i try to picture myself older
with longer legs and responsibilities
but the picture gets all fuzzy
and all the colors wash together
and all the corners are too sharp
and nobody is making sense
and we're all talking in circles
and i'm wondering if we'll ever stop.