Too Much
Had the 3rd of interviews yesterday: Tuesday I had a round 1 interview (law firm), Wednesday I had a panel interview (high school) and yesterday I had an intake/interview at a staffing agency. I'm exhausted and shaky. Too much extroversion and thinking about how to present myself. I just got an email from the high school: didn't get it. Though it was part-time and temporary, the "no" is still hard. That was a long bus ride, too. An hour each way. Oh, and I rode with students on the way back. I got hit with paper balls 3 times!
The law firm (I think) is calling references. 2 of my favorite supes from B-Mart have gone to bat for me and let me know about the calls. Of the stuff I've applied for, location and duty-wise, the law records clerk seems the most okay. In the meantime, I keep applying to office jobs of different sorts. There's nothing I want to do, and far more I'm underqualified/not qualified for, so I guess I just shoot down the middle and hope for something that won't crush me. If I can get time to read and feel some times of quiet braininess, spend time with The Hub and friends, without worrying about money, maybe I'll be okay.
Maybe.
I won't talk about the current nightmares. I just can't go there, because I feel all raw and exposed already. You ever just feel embarrassed for being? I hate feeling that way while I'm asleep. Ugh.