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Let's play a game.
1. What was your first impression of me?
2. What do you think of me now?
3. What (if anything) changed?
One for everybody, alright?
Let's play a game.
1. What was your first impression of me?
2. What do you think of me now?
3. What (if anything) changed?
One for everybody, alright?
1. The first thing I thought about you was that you seemed smart. And... I don't know what to call it. You walked up and said something to hooch and then noticed me and... you were still the same. You know what I mean? It wasn't like the regular change you see when someone meets a new person. You were very... relaxed. And very genuine. And yeah, you did have this... I dunno, just this really cool vibe. Like you just seemed like a cool person. In a kind of... John Lennon kind of way XD Not his real personality because he was a jerk, but like his public image.
2. ...The first time I saw you being energetic, I was very shocked. You always struck me as very... "Energy conservation." Now I see you as being a little more peppy at times (only at times though!) I love hanging out with you. I really feel like we do a great job understanding each other. And I feel like I know you pretty well. Everyone always acts like you're some big enigma, but you just don't disclose a few small details. It's no big deal. And with you, it's easy to just... hang out. You know? Like we don't always have to be the most interesting people in the world, we can just sit around. I like that.
3. I think there was a point when we just started hanging out a lot more - like without everybody else. Probably when all that technical stuff needed to be done for that party and we actually knew what we were doing... We just got to know each other. And I hate how gay I feel typing this stuff. I'd feel perfectly straght if it wasn't for that one kid at your school...
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1. Yeah, I really thought you were a jerk. Like. I hoped if I hung out with you guys, that you'd get violently sick and just not be there. As soon as you walked up I felt like I was locked in one of those spiked caskets. Really stiff and attacked from a million different angles. You just spent the whole time you were over there sending me death glares, and you didn't say anything more than a grunt or two in response. You just seemed like a cold hard bastard. Oh, but when hooch or BAM would say something to you, you'd drop the murder undertones. I remember you smiling at hooch. And it was creepy. Because then you just glared death at me again. Then you walked away with BAM and were over there joking around with her and I couldn't hear you and it made me paranoid and... I just really didn't like you.
2. You still make me a little nervous sometimes. It's not like we can mess around together like we can with everone else. But we still do sometimes, and that's great. Now I think you're cool to be with. You're really funny, even when you don't say anything. You'll give me a sarcastic look when someone says something dumb and it's just hilarious. I think you're generally pretty smart (a lot more than you get credit for) and you're one of the most laid-back people I know. From the few times we've ever had a real profound conversation, I feel like you're a verrryy interesting person. You have a lot going on in your head and I love hearing about it when you'll let me.
3. I guess you just softened up one day? I really don't remember when it happened. It seems like it was pretty recently, but then I can remember times last year when you were pleasant to me too. I don't mean to make it sound like I had nothing to do with the tenseness of our relationship and then it getting better but... Well... I don't think I did?
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1. Okay, honestly, I really admired you. Until I met you... Haha. I may have tried a bit too hard for your approval, but... Man. You just stared me down. You wouldn't even be like Pummer and glare at me. You just gave me this coolly blank stare, like I was the biggest waste of your time ever and you wondered when the hell I'd just go away. You were just... very, very cold. But even then, you just gave off these insane waves of awesome. You made me feel like a little boy. I just didn't feel cool enough to merit your approval. And again unlike Pummer, you wouldn't smile or joke with hooch. You had your ice shields up and they were not going down. Until you and Pummer walked off. Then I caught the first bit of feeling from you with the most intense glare I've ever been shot in my life. I could have had nightmares about that. I may have. Maybe I just suppressed them... But. I thought you were a bitch.
2. Now... I know you're a bitch! Just kidding. Kind of. I mean I've never seen you act like you did with me with anyone else. I guess you just thought I was one HELL of a loser. (Because we have met some fucked up people together since then.) But you do have this set of walls that just goes into action sometimes. Now I don't think you were being that much of a bitch to me... I think you were just being very guarded. And I don't know why you feel like you need to do that. Because you're seriously one of the coolest people on the planet. But that view I got of you has changed so drastically. You're helplessly sweet. You take care of me and look out for me. If one of us ever is upset about something or just doesn't feel good, you never hesitate to jump into your superBAM suit and fix us up. You're hellishly cute - I don't mean in appearance, but... you're hellishly cute looking too :) You are insane amounts of fun, but I think you're still a very laid-back person most of the time, and it always puts me in a good mood to be with you.
3. It's not really that I stopped trying to impress you... Because I still tried. I just got to know hooch and Smee better, so I felt a little more relaxed around you guys. You and Pummer still put me on edge (especially Pummer), but even while I really wanted you to like me, I didn't act as desperate about it. Then you started tolerating me. But then I followed hooch's advice and we became friends... He said to stop obsessing about it because I weirded you out. He was like "Be her friend even if she doesn't want to be yours." Aaand. That worked really well. After a little of that, you eased up around me and started to seem more like a real person instead of the unattainable BAM... So it got easier to relate to you and at eventually we got to be really good friends. BUTT-BUDDIES FO LIFE. <3
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