Apr 15, 2009 14:37
Grad school is rough, i figured that
but this lady i was working for, jesus h christ... what's the h stand for? huzzah?! anyway...
so one thing after another i have done wrong, never any positive reinforcement... hello, you've umpteen degrees in psychology, and you work with animals... are you attempting to create a learned helplessness paradigm with your students?
fuck her. so i just quit going in. pay me for doing nothing. two weeks left and fuck it. i'm tired of being blamed for you not going to a conference. i'm tired of being called insolate, indifferent, insubordiinate, and dumb.
so the latest little tiff we had occured monday
i proctor an exam for a disabled girl when needed, asked ages ago for an exam schedule. was told that w/ the ice storm she didn't have one so she would let me know 3 days prior.
that's reasonable yes?
well 2am monday morning i got an email saying the following'
"(girls name) you can take the exam in 603 at 11.30 as you have done in the past.
Rudd please administer the exam tomorrow.
well, i took this to mean tuesday.
jesus wept, babies died, and kittens were declawed w/out anesthesia.
TO HELL WITH IT!
this wouldn't be such an issue but tonight i must go up there for her neuropsychology course. I'm sure i'll get reamed, maybe infront of the class... again. but i just don't care. I'm tired of taking it. I'm tired of her getting me to sign up for behaviorial neuroscience and telling me that no i couldn't do research with her. fuck her.
so i switched to developmental. putting me a semester behind on my thesis, which i had no work towards anyway. which fucking hell, that's fine with me.
SO this summer is going to be gungho thesis work, which must be done. I think i can be responsible and competent and dilligent and all that jazz.
Many appearantly do not think so, but eh, i do like to prove people wrong.
everything would be so kosher if it wasn't for that. EVERYTHING.I don't want the GA i should tell em i'll quit, but it's 2 weeks before it's over so it goes.
This summer shall be rough, i need a job since i'm not taking classes, or i can try to scrape by and eat next to nothing and work on my thesis.. i may do that. i'm fat anyway.
I just don't want to deal with this crap nor should i have to.
In the fall I'm taking statistics, social and personality. woot woot!
mondays and tuesdays only. woot woot!
hopefully. and all the while working on research. which should be super fun.
I don't know, am i just a baby who can't take it? I don't think so, I just can't deal with her bullshit, and i don't want to.
everything else is perfectly kosher in the world of rudd, minus i have to haul ass to get my finals done. 2 take home projects left, 1 presentation left, and 2 finals.
2 more classes, and finals week.....
dear god let me get a's and b's.
mostly a's.
puuullleeeeaasseee