I'm on Heroin
Yeah so everyone in my family thinks I am on heroin. And it doesnt matter what I say because I am on it!
FUCK YOU DAD!
Yeah needless to say dinner with dad didnt go to well. The whole time he tells me I am scum and that I am going to hell... and that he is far past disapointed in me. I cant believe I thought that this was going to be just a dinner with dad.
I need him so badly right now... Brian... Beth IMed me today and said that she spoke with his sister... that just made me think about him. But I guess his sister likes me but has no idea when I like Brian... or something like that I wasnt really pay much attention to what was going on in the conversation...
God I feel like shit. I feel so lost and so alone. I know that I have Taco-man... and I know that Angel is always there for me but I just cant take this anymore. My family thinks I am doing drugs... not like Pot... no I could deal if they thought that... no they THINK I AM DOING MOTHER FUCKING HEROIN! what did I do to make them think that? I dont get it! IM THE GOOD ONE!
...but maybe I am as fucked up as they think I am... I mean I drink and I stay up late... but I pass the tests and I get the grades... but yet I am still a fuck up... and I know that dad didnt just come out and say... youre going to hell... but he kept bringing up faith and kept saying all this shit about how I dont go to church and all this shit... Damn it I just fucking hate all this crying...
Brian Come back to me...
Dad SHUT THE FUCK UP...
Cole be my twin again...
those are the only things I ask for...
That isnt much... so why is it that they only things I want I cant have?
FUCK YOU DAD!
Yeah needless to say dinner with dad didnt go to well. The whole time he tells me I am scum and that I am going to hell... and that he is far past disapointed in me. I cant believe I thought that this was going to be just a dinner with dad.
I need him so badly right now... Brian... Beth IMed me today and said that she spoke with his sister... that just made me think about him. But I guess his sister likes me but has no idea when I like Brian... or something like that I wasnt really pay much attention to what was going on in the conversation...
God I feel like shit. I feel so lost and so alone. I know that I have Taco-man... and I know that Angel is always there for me but I just cant take this anymore. My family thinks I am doing drugs... not like Pot... no I could deal if they thought that... no they THINK I AM DOING MOTHER FUCKING HEROIN! what did I do to make them think that? I dont get it! IM THE GOOD ONE!
...but maybe I am as fucked up as they think I am... I mean I drink and I stay up late... but I pass the tests and I get the grades... but yet I am still a fuck up... and I know that dad didnt just come out and say... youre going to hell... but he kept bringing up faith and kept saying all this shit about how I dont go to church and all this shit... Damn it I just fucking hate all this crying...
Brian Come back to me...
Dad SHUT THE FUCK UP...
Cole be my twin again...
those are the only things I ask for...
That isnt much... so why is it that they only things I want I cant have?