tear, tear...
i think i ruined my friends end of the summer party but i'm not sure. i mean i wouldn't blame her if she hated me and she probably wouldn't blame me if i hated her. cause we have been through a lot together its actually surprising that were not closer. i never know how to act around my own friends i don't want to be mean and i don't want to be annoying but i'm both anyways thats why no guy really ever liked me. i don't even know who i am. i know that must sound totally crasy but its true. the only things i know about myself are that i'm a drama queen who isn't funny and ruins things for people and always feels bad about herself and others. anyways i have a crush on a older boy from england and it drives me crasy knowing i might never ever see him in person again. i really REALLY have a crush on the guy.