Like the ocean. Full of comfort full of pain
Yesterday was phenomenal, almost heart-wrenching rather. Finally the 2 songs that had themselves deepy etched in me, found themselves back into my laptop after a long absence of what say - 3 years. 'Perhaps Love' was for a reason - and the reason is 'Allan'. So undoubtedly, i know what comes on next.. that smile and that adult-man that swept me off my feet without much of an effort simply because i was young with a whole truckload of 'oh yes i can attract him for sure'. It sounds crazy now, really and sad too. That sadness stems from the ways and means he had and the pining from me. I'm wondering now whether i am justified in feeling used. What have i done and felt? If i see him again, i wouldn't and couldn't bring myself to be cold. Just- i hope i never have to.
"One"? carry each other, carry each other. I didn't take care of myself, then. But i'm glad how things turned out somehow. I was wise, and then psuedo wise and some.
"One"? carry each other, carry each other. I didn't take care of myself, then. But i'm glad how things turned out somehow. I was wise, and then psuedo wise and some.