Arguing...again
So lately it seems I can't have a conversation with Paul without us arguing. And it always starts with stupid shit. Usually it starts with me pointing out every flaw he's/we've got (there are a lot. That's an entirely different story) but this time he started it. Which I must admit...is a new thing. And the manner in which he just suddenly started yelling scared me. This argument started with me posting on a messageboard about how Paris Hilton is dumb and I refuted it by saying she's media-savvy and while she might not know the square root of negative nine, she knows the power of publicity and she now sits atop a media empire all the while having no discernible talents. And Paul flipped out at me. [07:34 PM] Paul: you gotta learn when to not opinionate yourself ... [07:38 PM] Paul: just don't throw yourself into the middle of things [07:38 PM] Me: why not [07:39 PM] Paul: cause its a fucking bad idea now how bout you learn how to social be acceptable in conversations amoung groups your not acustomaed to miss i'm never going to be able to take care of myself in the real worl [07:40 PM] Me: most people would prefer to blend in i'm sure [07:40 PM] Me: i personally prefer to cause a scene [07:40 PM] Paul: fine then cause a scene and be hated [07:40 PM] Paul: like french revolution [07:40 PM] Me: will you hate me? [07:40 PM] Paul: you weren't liked, they killed you [07:40 PM] Paul: no i'm just disappointed that you never listen to my advice [07:41 PM] Paul: i always listen to you then you never listen to me thats how we work [07:42 PM] Me: do you really think it's that big of a deal to be disliked on a website? [07:43 PM] Paul: no its that big of a deal to see my girl looking like the kind of kid picked on because she can make everything right [07:43 PM] Me: and i am the kid who stands up for what's right even if i'm standing alone [07:44 PM] Paul: and you're never going to make a difference [07:44 PM] Paul: you're never going to be happy with the world its always gotta be something [07:44 PM] Me: "Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed individuals can change the world. Indeed, it's the only thing that ever has." [07:45 PM] Paul: how bout you stop quoting shit and start thinking up stuff yourself, all you do is state and quote [07:45 PM] Paul: everyone you love never got to be who they are through states and quotes [07:45 PM] Paul: now are we going to shut the fuck up about this and quit before we break out into an arguement like before ... [07:47 PM] Me: i don't want to be noticed [07:47 PM] Me: i don't need to be noticed [07:47 PM] Me: i want to say what i'm thinking [07:48 PM] Paul: i'm srry i'm being such a bitch but when ever i never take control of the relationship everything goes wrong [07:48 PM] Me: i will be one in a million, not one of a million. [07:48 PM] Paul: then be origonal [07:49 PM] Me: i'm being original by not just being all LAWL PARIS IZ A DUMB HORE. hehheheehehe i hayt her! shez stoopid [07:50 PM] Me: i represent an alternate viewpoint from an intellectual standpoint and that's original. [07:50 PM] Paul: fine w/e i'm not arqueing with you anymore [07:51 PM] Paul: argueing* [07:52 PM] Me: i don't know why you started arguing with me in the first place because i don't think i did anything to you [07:52 PM] Paul: maybe i'm scared for you and whats gonna happen to you because of who you insist and being [07:53 PM] Me: why would you be scared for me? [07:53 PM] Paul: cause i don't want anything bad happening to you [07:53 PM] Paul: like emotionally ... [07:53 PM] Me: who said i was in a bad mood [07:54 PM] Me: ignoring the tears i'm blinking out of my eyes i'm fine, ha [07:54 PM] Paul: i unno seems like everytime i get like this or i act mean you get all cry'y and upset and mad at me [07:54 PM] Paul: see i make you cry all the time when i say what i'm thinking [07:55 PM] Me: well i mean that was more out of shock that you just so suddenly started swearing at me and stuff [07:55 PM] Me: and like...i didn't know what i did to make you angry ... [07:58 PM] Paul: i'm not angry just upset that you don't see that your way out there [07:59 PM] Me: what do you mean [07:59 PM] Paul: your to irregular in social situations ... And somehow it ended up like this [08:53 PM] Me: stop being cooler than me [08:53 PM] Paul: its ok [08:53 PM] Paul: your smarter than me [08:53 PM] Me: um...yeah, no. [08:53 PM] Me: i'm no smarter than anyone else really. [08:54 PM] Me: again. the subtle art of bullshit. [08:55 PM] Me: so i can spell and divide [08:55 PM] Me: big whoops [08:55 PM] Me: *whoop. [08:55 PM] Me: DAMMIT. [08:55 PM] Me: i can't even spell. [08:55 PM] Me: i give up [08:55 PM] Me: i have no purpose [08:56 PM] Paul: you have keeping me company [08:56 PM] Paul: so deal with it cause there no way in hell im going bac kto being alone and lame again' [08:56 PM] Me: i'm pretty sure i don't affect your lameness or lack thereof [08:58 PM] Paul: yea [08:58 PM] Paul: with out you i am missing what makes me me now [08:58 PM] Me: what is it that makes you who you are, paul [08:59 PM] Paul: you [08:59 PM] Paul: the end [08:59 PM] Paul: don't argue it [08:59 PM] Paul: cause of you i have a much happier life [08:59 PM] Paul: and i'm gladly accepting me now as the real me [08:59 PM] Paul: and real me has you [08:59 PM] Me: if you're real now what were you before [08:59 PM] Paul: so by proccess of elimination, no you means no me [09:00 PM] Paul: lame [09:02 PM] Me: i am not a piece of you. we are not one person maybe we are maybe we're just one soul with two bodies I've been so confused about everything lately, dear readers.