So very confused.
I don't know how I feel about anything anymore. I'm so confused.
x LIGHTSABERR: do you love me?
x LIGHTSABERR: honestly.
DRiAMsoSMART: yes i do
DRiAMsoSMART: do you love me with out doubt?
x LIGHTSABERR: i'm not done yet.
x LIGHTSABERR: do you love me or do you love the idea of me?
x LIGHTSABERR: and if you think you love me...how do you know
DRiAMsoSMART: i love you for who you are here and now ideas are in the head
x LIGHTSABERR: and don't gimme an 'i dont know', i want you to figure it out. how do you know you love me
DRiAMsoSMART: i love you because you stand for everything that should be right and good in the world while everyone else takes advantage of everything and consumes it for their own good
DRiAMsoSMART: do you love me?
x LIGHTSABERR: i...i think so
x LIGHTSABERR: i don't know what's going on with me emotionally right now, to tell the absolute truth
DRiAMsoSMART: its ok
DRiAMsoSMART: you can take how ever long you want to think about it
x LIGHTSABERR: i...are...are you...upset that i said that, i guess
DRiAMsoSMART: no
DRiAMsoSMART: i just want you to think
later.
x LIGHTSABERR: paulie...i'm so sorry
DRiAMsoSMART: its ok
x LIGHTSABERR: it isn't. i don't want to hurt you but i don't want to lie to you either.
DRiAMsoSMART: if we ever break up i think i couldn't handle coming to anymore parties or hanging out anymore
x LIGHTSABERR: i wouldn't have parties any more if we broke up and you know that...but...while we're on the subject, and i feel it needs to be talked about...what would you do if it doesn't work out between us? and i just want to tell you...i want it to work. i really do.
DRiAMsoSMART: i don't know, i don't think i could be comfortable hanging out with any of your friends anymore and with that loss of friends i would have only like 4 friends again making school like miserable
x LIGHTSABERR: how do you feel about me telling you all this stuff
DRiAMsoSMART: i'm glad your being honest but also alittle scared
DRiAMsoSMART: my ex started asking me questions like this like how would i feel if she broke up with me then liek a week later she did
x LIGHTSABERR: well...i don't know her, but she's a hobofucker and a skankyass wench. no, not a wench, i'm the wench and i do the title up like it's royalty. she's a cunt. a fucking cunt. i don't need to know her to say that, because by the merit of her being your ex, she's a skank. i hope you guys aren't like best friends.
DRiAMsoSMART: were not
x LIGHTSABERR: i'm not gonna break up with you, because first of all i'm not just going to be one of the witches that broke your heart. secondly i like you. you're fun, and in these moments such as now when i realise you can really be mature and understanding, i'm convinced how i feel about you could be love. but i don't know how i feel for sure. and i think if we have honest conversations like this more, it'll help me.
x LIGHTSABERR: do you love me?
x LIGHTSABERR: honestly.
DRiAMsoSMART: yes i do
DRiAMsoSMART: do you love me with out doubt?
x LIGHTSABERR: i'm not done yet.
x LIGHTSABERR: do you love me or do you love the idea of me?
x LIGHTSABERR: and if you think you love me...how do you know
DRiAMsoSMART: i love you for who you are here and now ideas are in the head
x LIGHTSABERR: and don't gimme an 'i dont know', i want you to figure it out. how do you know you love me
DRiAMsoSMART: i love you because you stand for everything that should be right and good in the world while everyone else takes advantage of everything and consumes it for their own good
DRiAMsoSMART: do you love me?
x LIGHTSABERR: i...i think so
x LIGHTSABERR: i don't know what's going on with me emotionally right now, to tell the absolute truth
DRiAMsoSMART: its ok
DRiAMsoSMART: you can take how ever long you want to think about it
x LIGHTSABERR: i...are...are you...upset that i said that, i guess
DRiAMsoSMART: no
DRiAMsoSMART: i just want you to think
later.
x LIGHTSABERR: paulie...i'm so sorry
DRiAMsoSMART: its ok
x LIGHTSABERR: it isn't. i don't want to hurt you but i don't want to lie to you either.
DRiAMsoSMART: if we ever break up i think i couldn't handle coming to anymore parties or hanging out anymore
x LIGHTSABERR: i wouldn't have parties any more if we broke up and you know that...but...while we're on the subject, and i feel it needs to be talked about...what would you do if it doesn't work out between us? and i just want to tell you...i want it to work. i really do.
DRiAMsoSMART: i don't know, i don't think i could be comfortable hanging out with any of your friends anymore and with that loss of friends i would have only like 4 friends again making school like miserable
x LIGHTSABERR: how do you feel about me telling you all this stuff
DRiAMsoSMART: i'm glad your being honest but also alittle scared
DRiAMsoSMART: my ex started asking me questions like this like how would i feel if she broke up with me then liek a week later she did
x LIGHTSABERR: well...i don't know her, but she's a hobofucker and a skankyass wench. no, not a wench, i'm the wench and i do the title up like it's royalty. she's a cunt. a fucking cunt. i don't need to know her to say that, because by the merit of her being your ex, she's a skank. i hope you guys aren't like best friends.
DRiAMsoSMART: were not
x LIGHTSABERR: i'm not gonna break up with you, because first of all i'm not just going to be one of the witches that broke your heart. secondly i like you. you're fun, and in these moments such as now when i realise you can really be mature and understanding, i'm convinced how i feel about you could be love. but i don't know how i feel for sure. and i think if we have honest conversations like this more, it'll help me.