A weird dream with a normal conclusion
i had a dream that I kept killing a baby. not on purpose, but I would put him down and I would accidentally lay him on his face when the phone rang and he suffocated. but when I went to give him mouth to mouth, he took a deep breath and he was breathing on his own. Then another time he wasn't a baby, he was like, a robot, but the embodiment of the same baby. And his face was on a sliding apparatus that was broken and I had to keep it from dipping in the water or else he would drown. And I kept it up, but when I went to change his diaper, his face slipped into the water and I didn't think to stop it until he stopped crying. So I lifted his face from the water to give him mouth to mouth, yet again, but when I tried he was already breathing and cooing as if nothing happened. oh yeah, and he was no longer robot baby.
I know this baby in real life. He's the son of a man who works down the hall. In real life he's older, about a year now and doesn't need so much help, and in the dream he was supposed to be the same age, but was extremely helpless at times. anyway, I looked at Dreammoods.com, and unfortunately they don't have a section for "kind of robot babies." but the baby section is pretty long.
I figured this had to do with a fear of living with Charmane and her nephews that might be subconsciously freaking me out. But then I read on:
Babies symbolize something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or uncorrupted...To dream of a crying baby, indicates that a part of yourself that is deprived of attention and needs some nurturing. Alternatively, it represents your unfulfilled goals and a sense of lacking in your life. If you dream that a baby is neglected, then it suggests that you are not paying enough attention to yourself. You are not utilizing your full potential.... To see a dead baby in your dream, symbolizes the ending of something that is part of you...To dream of an extremely small baby, symbolizes your helplessness and your fears of letting others become aware of your vulnerabilities and incompetence. You may be afraid to ask for help and as a result tend to take matters into your own hands. To dream that you are dipping a baby in and out of water, signifies regression. You are regressing to a time where you had no worries and responsibilities. Alternatively, it is reminisce of when the baby is in the fetus and in its comfort zone...So perhaps, the dream is your search for your own comfort zone.
Based on what I read, I think that this could carry some weight. Maybe it is an obvious fear of taking care of children, but maybe it's also the subconcious route. I am going through this new change that will hopefully change the course of my life. It's brand new and very pure in stages, but I care for it much like I would a child. And I am depriving it. I give my full energy to my 9-5, even when I don't want to because it pays my bills. And when I get home, my brain is so exhausted, I find it hard to devote time to my writing. And I know that I'm wasting my potential at this job. They want me to work hard and toil and ask "how high" when they tell me to jump because I should be so pleased that I'm employed and at such a place, the Mayor's Office! But I'm losing luster, and I feel like I'm wasting time here more than gaining a career.
I do feel helpless because I'm stuck here. And if I leave this job or lose it, I'll be completely vulnerable and dependent.
I often regress back to when I had little responsibility. When I worked as a waitress and wrote my ass off because nothing else took up space in my head like budget reports and deadlines. And I sometimes wish I could still live like that. Not with my parents like I did then, but I miss what it was like with my writing. I have none of that now. And when I think of my writing, it is my comfort zone, but it's not comforting since I'm struggling so much. On some level, I'm afraid that I'm going to let my dream die.
wow...what a read. I mean, even if that's not what the dream meant, it doesn't make it untrue.
I know this baby in real life. He's the son of a man who works down the hall. In real life he's older, about a year now and doesn't need so much help, and in the dream he was supposed to be the same age, but was extremely helpless at times. anyway, I looked at Dreammoods.com, and unfortunately they don't have a section for "kind of robot babies." but the baby section is pretty long.
I figured this had to do with a fear of living with Charmane and her nephews that might be subconsciously freaking me out. But then I read on:
Babies symbolize something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or uncorrupted...To dream of a crying baby, indicates that a part of yourself that is deprived of attention and needs some nurturing. Alternatively, it represents your unfulfilled goals and a sense of lacking in your life. If you dream that a baby is neglected, then it suggests that you are not paying enough attention to yourself. You are not utilizing your full potential.... To see a dead baby in your dream, symbolizes the ending of something that is part of you...To dream of an extremely small baby, symbolizes your helplessness and your fears of letting others become aware of your vulnerabilities and incompetence. You may be afraid to ask for help and as a result tend to take matters into your own hands. To dream that you are dipping a baby in and out of water, signifies regression. You are regressing to a time where you had no worries and responsibilities. Alternatively, it is reminisce of when the baby is in the fetus and in its comfort zone...So perhaps, the dream is your search for your own comfort zone.
Based on what I read, I think that this could carry some weight. Maybe it is an obvious fear of taking care of children, but maybe it's also the subconcious route. I am going through this new change that will hopefully change the course of my life. It's brand new and very pure in stages, but I care for it much like I would a child. And I am depriving it. I give my full energy to my 9-5, even when I don't want to because it pays my bills. And when I get home, my brain is so exhausted, I find it hard to devote time to my writing. And I know that I'm wasting my potential at this job. They want me to work hard and toil and ask "how high" when they tell me to jump because I should be so pleased that I'm employed and at such a place, the Mayor's Office! But I'm losing luster, and I feel like I'm wasting time here more than gaining a career.
I do feel helpless because I'm stuck here. And if I leave this job or lose it, I'll be completely vulnerable and dependent.
I often regress back to when I had little responsibility. When I worked as a waitress and wrote my ass off because nothing else took up space in my head like budget reports and deadlines. And I sometimes wish I could still live like that. Not with my parents like I did then, but I miss what it was like with my writing. I have none of that now. And when I think of my writing, it is my comfort zone, but it's not comforting since I'm struggling so much. On some level, I'm afraid that I'm going to let my dream die.
wow...what a read. I mean, even if that's not what the dream meant, it doesn't make it untrue.