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I really should update more often. I came home from work early today because I wasn't feeling well. I wonder how they managed without me since I was the only closer. I am glad that after tomorrow I have five days without work again. I start my economics class this week. I nearly forgot. I also have a couple tests this week. I hope I do well and I hope this year goes by fast. I am so bored with my life. I want to go back to UCSB already. I miss it! I want to see people before they graduate and hopefully meet some new people.
It's crazy to think this is where I ended up. I would have never imagined this when I was like 12 years old. As I've said before, my 12 year old self would kick my ass. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and change things. For example, I would have stayed at UCSB first quarter and probably met Jordan earlier on (or would I?) and not make the same mistakes with credit cards. And I would have changed my major to either Poli Sci or Business Econ. This way I would have stay in school and not be where I am right now. I might even have graduated early if I had taken summer school for 3 summers. Or had a really easy senior year or something. Yeah if I had to do it all over I would change a lot. I would go back and prevent Katie's accident. I would have saved Hunter somehow. I wouldn't have let myself drift into such a deep depression senior year or become so anxiety ridden freshmen year. I might even have been able to prevent my mom's car accident. Though I only remember that it was in October.
I guess a lot of people would like to change the past. There's so many things we wish we hadn't done or hadn't said. But then I suppose you learn from the past. Although being able to change it would help you learn too. But, really, you only control the future. I'll never use my credit cards again once 2007 ends. I've never overdraft again in 2008. I swear I will be back in school next year and happy once again. I swear I'll leave the past behind me. I may even leave the state after graduation. Maybe I can actually afford to live on my own in another state. Though it's strange. I don't think I could date a guy who isn't from California. That would be weird. They wouldn't be as liberal. They wouldn't be as... well... Californian. Maybe I'll stay in the state and meet some surfer guy (you know it's got to be a surfer, this time at least).
What state would I move to? Virginia would be just as expensive. I think Colorado is cheap enough and I have a lot of family out there. That would be interesting. I would probably die of the cold weather. No Texas for me no matter how cheap it is. I am not associating myself with that state. Nevada is cheaper and closer to California so that I could drive home to visit. Florida is far away but they have nice weather. Hurricanes are a draw back though. Especially with all this global warming. Washington seems too cold. We'll see how it turns out though. Maybe I could get some job offers else where just to see.
I suppose that is one good thing about the future- it's unexpected. I certainly wouldn't have expected this current future for me back when I was 12 years old and content fighting with Janelle over Shasta.
Life is just like that, I suppose.
It's crazy to think this is where I ended up. I would have never imagined this when I was like 12 years old. As I've said before, my 12 year old self would kick my ass. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and change things. For example, I would have stayed at UCSB first quarter and probably met Jordan earlier on (or would I?) and not make the same mistakes with credit cards. And I would have changed my major to either Poli Sci or Business Econ. This way I would have stay in school and not be where I am right now. I might even have graduated early if I had taken summer school for 3 summers. Or had a really easy senior year or something. Yeah if I had to do it all over I would change a lot. I would go back and prevent Katie's accident. I would have saved Hunter somehow. I wouldn't have let myself drift into such a deep depression senior year or become so anxiety ridden freshmen year. I might even have been able to prevent my mom's car accident. Though I only remember that it was in October.
I guess a lot of people would like to change the past. There's so many things we wish we hadn't done or hadn't said. But then I suppose you learn from the past. Although being able to change it would help you learn too. But, really, you only control the future. I'll never use my credit cards again once 2007 ends. I've never overdraft again in 2008. I swear I will be back in school next year and happy once again. I swear I'll leave the past behind me. I may even leave the state after graduation. Maybe I can actually afford to live on my own in another state. Though it's strange. I don't think I could date a guy who isn't from California. That would be weird. They wouldn't be as liberal. They wouldn't be as... well... Californian. Maybe I'll stay in the state and meet some surfer guy (you know it's got to be a surfer, this time at least).
What state would I move to? Virginia would be just as expensive. I think Colorado is cheap enough and I have a lot of family out there. That would be interesting. I would probably die of the cold weather. No Texas for me no matter how cheap it is. I am not associating myself with that state. Nevada is cheaper and closer to California so that I could drive home to visit. Florida is far away but they have nice weather. Hurricanes are a draw back though. Especially with all this global warming. Washington seems too cold. We'll see how it turns out though. Maybe I could get some job offers else where just to see.
I suppose that is one good thing about the future- it's unexpected. I certainly wouldn't have expected this current future for me back when I was 12 years old and content fighting with Janelle over Shasta.
Life is just like that, I suppose.