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Almost a month... not quite.
Going to Ikea tonite to get a thing of sorts to hang my curtian deal from in front of my bed. The new lights are rad and I'm beginning to feel at home in my stupid house.
Just because I dont' go to school on a day my paper is due doesnt' mean that's why i stayed home. christ.
My stomach is eating me alive. i forgot to take my pills this morning. I should go do that.
I think my reading at Intermedia went well. I was scared as hell but I think it was about as good as it could have been. I'd stick the poem thing... whatever it is... in here, but it's really long and i don't know how to make it a link, so I won't take up too much space.
School's been really really getting to me lately. I can't fucking handle it anymore. It just makes me miserable. The other day Joy said to me "I can't wait until it's summer so you can be happy again. I know you're never going to be happy while you go here. It makes me sad to see you like this. I just want you to be happy again." I know that's a little bit of a stretch. it's not that i'm not happy anymore, I just sort of shut down while i'm at school. blah blah emo emo emo. I'm sorry, but i really hope that i can do pseo next year because this fucking school is killing me.
New York is still looking hopefull, but my mom has convinced me that i'm just going to be wasting her money as well as mine, so i really shouldn't go. but i'm going to anyway.
I miss Gaea so much. i hope she's having fun in Italy.
Going to Ikea tonite to get a thing of sorts to hang my curtian deal from in front of my bed. The new lights are rad and I'm beginning to feel at home in my stupid house.
Just because I dont' go to school on a day my paper is due doesnt' mean that's why i stayed home. christ.
My stomach is eating me alive. i forgot to take my pills this morning. I should go do that.
I think my reading at Intermedia went well. I was scared as hell but I think it was about as good as it could have been. I'd stick the poem thing... whatever it is... in here, but it's really long and i don't know how to make it a link, so I won't take up too much space.
School's been really really getting to me lately. I can't fucking handle it anymore. It just makes me miserable. The other day Joy said to me "I can't wait until it's summer so you can be happy again. I know you're never going to be happy while you go here. It makes me sad to see you like this. I just want you to be happy again." I know that's a little bit of a stretch. it's not that i'm not happy anymore, I just sort of shut down while i'm at school. blah blah emo emo emo. I'm sorry, but i really hope that i can do pseo next year because this fucking school is killing me.
New York is still looking hopefull, but my mom has convinced me that i'm just going to be wasting her money as well as mine, so i really shouldn't go. but i'm going to anyway.
I miss Gaea so much. i hope she's having fun in Italy.