TENTH miracle ~ VIDEO

[mirthfulness]

[Gamzee is sitting on his bed, idly plucking the strings on the bass guitar Tavros had gotten for him. There's actually something of a tune there if you listen hard enough, if incredibly basic.]

...So where the motherfuck is he?

[There's a certain angry troll missing, and the loss hasn't gone unnoticed by the still sober indigo blood.]

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[lousygoodfriend]

... so you've noticed as well. But I'm sure it's nothing to be concerned with. Isn't it common for people to disappear and reappear upon occasion?

[mirthfulness]

THEY DON'T ALWAYS COME THE MOTHERFUCK BACK.

[He twangs the strings a little harder than necessary.]

[lousygoodfriend]

... true. But on that occasion he would be returned home. [There seems to be a lot angst on this issue regardless, so she's trying to be careful.] That would be a good thing, would it not?

[mirthfulness]

Why would it be a good thing?

WHAT'S SO WRONG WITH BEIN' HERE?

It ain't so motherfuckin' bad, right?

[lousygoodfriend]

[And in this point, why she's treading so lightly...] Well, I could say my opinions but...

... I think we should keep in mind that there are different sides to each point. It's not terrible, no. I never said that. Just... wouldn't it be a good thing, if we were returned home? If he did go back, it should be a good thing. And if he returns, then we can welcome him gratefully.

[mirthfulness]

BUT I DON'T MOTHERFUCKIN' WANT HIM THERE.

[He reaches out to the recuperacoon sitting beside his bed and knocks the whole thing over violently.

Thankfully there's nothing inside it yet.]

[lousygoodfriend]

[Oh... oh dear. She's not used to seeing Gamzee this upset, but does her best to settle the topic.]

... I... I understand. I'm sure he'll be back, eventually. It does seem to work that way, from what everyone has said. Gamzee, are you going to be alright?

[mirthfulness]

[He slumps forward a little to put his face in his hands.]

...I dunno, sis.

I DON'T MOTHERFUCKIN' KNOW.

Can't all keep my thoughts in order most of the time now.

[lousygoodfriend]

... is there anything I can do to help? It's very worrying to see you like this. I'm sure Karkat would be concerned as well. [She doesn't mean to play that card, but it seems best to say.] If you need anything...

[mirthfulness]

I DON'T KNOW.

I don't know.

I DON'T KNOW.

I don't know.

[He takes a couple long, deep breaths, face still covered. When he speaks again, he's putting effort into keeping his tone one volume.]

I think... If I went back to eatin' those pies again? It'd be all like it was. But... I also think maybe they weren't bein' that good for me, you know? Like they was rustin' a hole right through my thinkpan.

[lousygoodfriend]

True, they did not seem the most beneficiary to your health. But it's... whatever you think is best I suppose. Has it been awhile since you've had one? If they're affecting your mood it might be a process of either eliminating it to even things out, or... continuing to keep things as they are. I'm actually not sure exactly how your pies affected you specifically, aside from your own description, so I'm doing as best as I can with limited knowledge...

[mirthfulness]

I didn't have none when I was stuck in the jungle. I got them here now, and they're bein' delivered every day just like before... But I just been lettin' them sit there.

[lousygoodfriend]

Do you intend to take them again? It is your choice in the end, after all.

[mirthfulness]

...I don't know.

[lousygoodfriend]

... well, whenever you do decide. I hope things pick up for you Gamzee. Let me know if I can do anything at all.

[mirthfulness]

Yeah... Sure.

Thanks for bein' around, sis.