From what I've tasted of desire...

[rubybegonia]

I am not crying over the loss of a brother per se, I am more crying for the loss of a childhood. As I look back I can see how selfish and spoiled I was, and the effect that had, I posioned everything with my antics and believe I took from those, what they were entitled too. Now I know, and wish I could put myself aside and let the glory of life he embodies shine through and overshadow me. There was a time when I wanted to take him far away from this place, cultivate him in to being his own person. Allow him all the love and freedoms I believed I had missed out on. Now I know that I was not qualified for that task, and life will work itself to mold us the was it is supposed to. I am no longer so arrogant.
A- I am proud of who you are and who you will become. If we didn't know each other as blood, I would still want to know you as a person. I am sorry if I ever acted differently, I think I am humbled by your intelligence and passion for knowledge, a passion I thought I embodied alone but now realize that you have surpassed me in so many ways. The big city might chew you up a little, but we both know that an irritation like that is good for the craft. Take care of yourself, as much as you will, know that the world will continue to change, that is what you love about it, and what I fear, but as it changes for both of us, hopefully the tao that is "us" will not.