Mighty king of Avondale, I just can't let this go...
The biggest downside is having too much time to think.
The truth is, after this long, it still feels like a huge, ugly, purple bruise that will not heal.
Sometimes it hurts so much it absolutely overwhelms me.
I have to fix myself somehow, but they say that time heals everything and that is bullshit. Therapy will not fix this because therapy will not undo what was done. Maybe I just haven't waited long enough.
But I think that when someone close rips your heart out, it keeps aching til you stop loving them, and I won't do that.
Maybe it's just the fact of the new year, making me review the last year, and think about how to improve and what not to repeat.
Talk about a self-fulfilling prophecy.
But if the bruise had healed, gentle pressure wouldn't still make me want to cry til I puke. I know what scars feel like. This is not the same thing.
I hope this passes. I'm positive I'd honestly healed a little at one point. I'm not sure what ripped the scab off this time.
The truth is, after this long, it still feels like a huge, ugly, purple bruise that will not heal.
Sometimes it hurts so much it absolutely overwhelms me.
I have to fix myself somehow, but they say that time heals everything and that is bullshit. Therapy will not fix this because therapy will not undo what was done. Maybe I just haven't waited long enough.
But I think that when someone close rips your heart out, it keeps aching til you stop loving them, and I won't do that.
Maybe it's just the fact of the new year, making me review the last year, and think about how to improve and what not to repeat.
Talk about a self-fulfilling prophecy.
But if the bruise had healed, gentle pressure wouldn't still make me want to cry til I puke. I know what scars feel like. This is not the same thing.
I hope this passes. I'm positive I'd honestly healed a little at one point. I'm not sure what ripped the scab off this time.