Wai. A rant.
Okay. So, typical. The day after my exams are finish, I become unwell. Again. I was out with my friends, just sitting and talking, and then I got really cold suddenly, so I went home to put more clothes on (regardless of the fact I already had my hoodie thingy thing on) So, I come out the house with a jumper on, then a jacket, and my hoodie over the top, making three warm layers. I get back to my friends again, and I’m sitting on his bed and all three of us are talking again, and I’m still shivering, so he picks up his cover and throws it over me, it’s nice and warm, yet I’m still shivering. I have no idea what all that was about. But finally, when I got home, I threw up and had an early night. Next day (Thursday) I could barely even get out of bed. My ears were hurting, my throat was hurting, I was just generally hurting. XD And Friday, I started to feel a little better, but still a little off, so I figured by yesterday I should have been feeling better. Wrong. Yesterday I had a pressure on my head which made me feel so sick and so dizzy. It wasn’t nice. Today I just feel kinda eh. So I have no idea what the past few days have been about, but I hope it doesn’t happen again because I’m fed up of not being well. I can’t wait to finally eat something. I haven’t had a proper meal since at least Tuesday. @_@
Now, on to my little rant thing.
I think I’m beginning to hate the internet. I’m not myself. I can’t express myself the way I am, and most people think I’m something that I’m not. And I’m guessing people hate me for it. I’m not surprised, I hate me too. I dunno, I’m just kinda confused about it. To me, internet doesn’t feel like the real me, so I just kind of want to forget everything that’s happened because of the internet, but I don’t want to loose what little friends I have. Unless, of course, they don’t want to know me anymore. In which case, I kinda have no choice but to loose them.
I should get my exam results back on about the 24th August. I’m dreading it. I know I haven’t done well at all. And I know why? Because five years ago, I tried so hard, and I kept on and on trying to achieve everything I wanted. Two years ago, I got involved with the silly internet, and I let myself get pulling in day after day, and forgot about the more important things in my life, such as my education, and I got away from it too late. So I’ve failed. Yey. My hope and dreams, since at least 11 years of age are gonna be shattered, and it’s all my fault. Bah.
In real life news: Who am I? I hate social divides, yet I’m stuck in one. Lesser of the two evils I guess, but I’m just so sick of walking down the street and getting shouted out because of the things I like and the things I wear. I don’t go around shouting anything to anyone, so why do they have to make a point of shouting things at me? I think after years of it, I’ve had enough of childish name calling. I’ve always been called things like ‘fat fuck’ and yeah, I agree with that. I’m used to that. But shouting name at me because of the things I wear and the music I listen to, it’s just not right. It’s tiring and pathetic. But why should I change just because of them? These people calling names are the problem teenagers which make society look down there noses and give people like me and my friends dirty looks as we walk down the street. I would NEVER even THINK about hurting an elderly person or stealing, and yet these other teenagers do stuff like that, and we get tarnished with the same brush. It’s got to stop. It isn’t fair. It’s not all teenagers that are the problem, it’s a certain few. But I’m not saying that all these sort of people are bad and steal and whatever, cause I knows there some decent ones. Very few and far between, mind, but they are there. An I’m sure their fed up of being tarnished with the same brush and fed up of hearing how all teens are at fault, when we’re not. Meh. Society sucks. Social divides sucks. And most of all, accusations for doing absolutely nothing to harm society in any way shape or form, suck. I have no idea what to do.
I guess that’s the end of that rant. But things aren’t all bad. I’m actually pretty happy apart from being a little under the weather still. Things are okay in life regarding friends and things. Teehee.
Oh, and I’m probably gonna be sorting out my msn contact lists soon. One is gonna be for real life friends, the other for other friends. Chances are, I’m hardly ever gonna log into my other friends one, due to the fact no one talks to me, everyone has forgotten me, and nobody cares. Or at least that’s the impression I get.
Now, on to my little rant thing.
I think I’m beginning to hate the internet. I’m not myself. I can’t express myself the way I am, and most people think I’m something that I’m not. And I’m guessing people hate me for it. I’m not surprised, I hate me too. I dunno, I’m just kinda confused about it. To me, internet doesn’t feel like the real me, so I just kind of want to forget everything that’s happened because of the internet, but I don’t want to loose what little friends I have. Unless, of course, they don’t want to know me anymore. In which case, I kinda have no choice but to loose them.
I should get my exam results back on about the 24th August. I’m dreading it. I know I haven’t done well at all. And I know why? Because five years ago, I tried so hard, and I kept on and on trying to achieve everything I wanted. Two years ago, I got involved with the silly internet, and I let myself get pulling in day after day, and forgot about the more important things in my life, such as my education, and I got away from it too late. So I’ve failed. Yey. My hope and dreams, since at least 11 years of age are gonna be shattered, and it’s all my fault. Bah.
In real life news: Who am I? I hate social divides, yet I’m stuck in one. Lesser of the two evils I guess, but I’m just so sick of walking down the street and getting shouted out because of the things I like and the things I wear. I don’t go around shouting anything to anyone, so why do they have to make a point of shouting things at me? I think after years of it, I’ve had enough of childish name calling. I’ve always been called things like ‘fat fuck’ and yeah, I agree with that. I’m used to that. But shouting name at me because of the things I wear and the music I listen to, it’s just not right. It’s tiring and pathetic. But why should I change just because of them? These people calling names are the problem teenagers which make society look down there noses and give people like me and my friends dirty looks as we walk down the street. I would NEVER even THINK about hurting an elderly person or stealing, and yet these other teenagers do stuff like that, and we get tarnished with the same brush. It’s got to stop. It isn’t fair. It’s not all teenagers that are the problem, it’s a certain few. But I’m not saying that all these sort of people are bad and steal and whatever, cause I knows there some decent ones. Very few and far between, mind, but they are there. An I’m sure their fed up of being tarnished with the same brush and fed up of hearing how all teens are at fault, when we’re not. Meh. Society sucks. Social divides sucks. And most of all, accusations for doing absolutely nothing to harm society in any way shape or form, suck. I have no idea what to do.
I guess that’s the end of that rant. But things aren’t all bad. I’m actually pretty happy apart from being a little under the weather still. Things are okay in life regarding friends and things. Teehee.
Oh, and I’m probably gonna be sorting out my msn contact lists soon. One is gonna be for real life friends, the other for other friends. Chances are, I’m hardly ever gonna log into my other friends one, due to the fact no one talks to me, everyone has forgotten me, and nobody cares. Or at least that’s the impression I get.